SweetPoison

Shadows
2003-07-06 21:28:58 (UTC)

All day Staring at the ceiling..

All day
Staring at the ceiling making
Friends with shadows on my wall
All night
I'm hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good
For something

Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why

(chorus)
I'm not crazy I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

See me
Talking to myself in public
And dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me

Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind

(chorus)

Talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
They'll be taking me away


Right now I'm just so... utterly confused... I just... I can't sleep.
I got up to get something warm to drink and I find myself here, at
this keyboard, typing away... checking things... and now I cry... out
of pity, out of shock, out of I don't know what, but it's there, a
sort of understanding! And I just can't... Pathetic... it's all
pathetic... I don't know what to do... I wish I could make a
difference, but I don't know how... or what or why or when! Damnit!
I'm so... helpless... waves of shivers and wracking sobs! Damnit! I
can't do this! I have to much else to do! Fuck... there is... nothing
I can do... not in this state... just... move on, keep going,
pretending, imagining things are just asofuckinglutely peachy fucking
keen all the time! Friends, family, school! Pressure! Stress! I'm
fucking loosing my god damn mind! I'm ranting and raging and for
what?! So you can read a pathetic vent of anger and frustration! what
for!? Damnit... I just need to shut up, go drink my hot chocolate and
try to fucking sleep... I just wish I could help... But... there is
nothing I can do, if you don't let me... I can't know how, or why...
I just......

Pathetic
Stressed
Pressured
Used
Unloved
Massively unappreciated

What the fucking hell is wrong!!! Can't IMAGINE WHAT! CAN'T FUCKING
IMAGINE HOW!!!


FUCK!

I need to stop, I can't do this, it's childish, it's insane, it's
irrational and immature! STOPIT!


...


I told you I'd get crazier...


~* I'm sorry, I can't lie, I've wasted to much time...-~
~* Drowning, in this lie, I've wasted too much time...-~
~*~*~* So I'll just say... Good Bye...-~-~-~


Good night sweet prince... To sleep perchance to dream... or
perchance to drown in the dark abyss of nightmares...




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