Salsa

Sal's stupid issues
2003-07-01 19:32:05 (UTC)

i sucked today.

Dear diary,

So, exam is nearer and nearer and i'm just getting crazier
and crazier. In stead of staying at home wif a book, i
drove my bike out for hours, last night i did it in the
rain. so, i know it doesnt help, but i just...wanna...
out...

One of the reasons that leads to my pretty cracked mind is,
ok, Weirdo to blame. Okey, i wanna see him. but i
restrained myself and i dont know why the hell i did that.
But, gotta see him tomorrow, gotta see him, cant help it...

Yesterday, i added a anonymous guy who has a nick
heoconkhatnuoc to my YM. frankly, i didnt know who the hell
he is. but i had a suspect that is Weirdo. And that guy
asked me "Who??" so i answer "who knows?" and "i dont know
if you are the one i think you are". but he replied me no
more. i guess i was mistaken, so i delete that guy from my
friends' lists. anyway, i heard once Weirdo said he doesnt
give a fuck about those internet thingy. ~_~', so, it's
pretty sure i'll never see him online or chat with him.
Talking about chatting, Han, a cousin of mine relentlessly
asks me to join wif her in a website chatroom. i dont want
to impugn her but the truth is that i hate chatting
uselessly like that. i'd rather be alone than talking to
people i cant feel, well, i mean, seeing, touching,
hearing, feeling...any kind of sense communication. Typing
with an unknown person from nowhere is definitely not my
thing.

Today, Phu''s back. well, he's kinda my childhood friend
(althoght we were not very happily getting along together)
He's a neighbour, dowstair. So, now he's back from his
studying abroad. In US, i think. anyway, all i wanna say is
just i hate that guy. i dont know why but i just hold a
hatred toward him for no reason. :-P i've hated him since
he was still in the same secondary school as mine.
althought everytime he sees me, he just puts on a very
polited face and says "cha`o chi!". (i'm 1 year older than
him). that guy is so fucking abominated! good looking face,
but cocky and sham and empty! and how i hate sham-looked
guy who always act as if they're the center of the universe
and the whole world're revolving around them! shit!




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