caulfield

Exit from Reality
2003-06-27 18:20:56 (UTC)

oh god i still believe

tuesday after practice i went over to lochs. we got in the
jammies and headed up to the movie store to pick out a
flick. i saw happenstance with my now favorite actress,
audrey tatou, but loch doesnt have a dvd player, and they
didnt have it in vhs...fucking, trick, fucking, bitch,
fucking, uh! we headed over to hollywood, where we saw
gretchen, emily boone, and monica. i like all three of
those girls, theyre really nice, especially
gretchen...girls the shit. then we saw kyle hanken (lochs
ex) along with marisa and ashley norcutt. well, i dont
really know these girls all that well, but i think marisa's
really pretty, anyways, the point is that i hadnt seen like
anyone from maple grove besides the regular bball girls,
and occasionally like one or two old friends here and
there...i felt like i was flooded with them, haha. we got
home, and sat outside on her deck, watching the storm. it
started to rain, and we just stayed there, enjoying every
second. storms are the coolest. we watched our flick,
kicked back, then went to bed.

wednesday night, shannon, my mom, trav, and myself went
shopping at ridgedale. i got the dress i wanted from hot
topic. i can not wait to wear it to the assembly in
rochester...only 6 more days. i thought i was supposed to
see stefan but it didnt really work out. if i wasnt going
on a date then i was supposed to be going to basketball
with val and jamie and mel (us people who missed tuesdays
open gym.) well i didnt tell my dad that val wanted me
there, so he had no idea, and i just didnt show up. fuck
basketball right now. we all got home, and loch came over
for like 30 minutes. loch and i just sat on my front porch,
devouring our cigarettes...it had been 5 days of none, and
then i collapsed, full collapse if anything. she left me,
and i went downstairs and watched requiem for a dream with
nanno and trav. the only thing thats weird about that is
that sam and chris were watching the same movie, same
night. i guess in actuality its not that weird, but i chose
to say so, so suck it.

thursday i had basketball...meh, boring, lame, repetitive,
kill me now. i got home and felt completely sick. i was
sure i got the flu from stevie, which wasnt something i was
chipper about. my mom came home from church, snuggled up
with me, and played with my hair as we watched amelie
together. i enjoyed every second, and i didnt feel that
sick anymore...which i think had something to do with her
making me more relaxed. i wouldnt say my moms stupid, but
shes just not all that smart, and cant read that fast...so
i read her all the subtitles, which she seemed to like and
appreciate. before she went to bed, she said she had
something for me. i followed her throughout the house, and
into the closet, where she takes out a paper bag. i look
inside, and theres a 1.75 liter of vodka. "i got it in
plastic, so if youre a lil tipsy you dont break it!"-wow,
thanks mom, love you. shes so cute, haha. i cant believe my
own mom buys me alcohol, and is cool about it, as long as
im with people that are good (whatever that means?)

well i was pretty excited about that, since all of its
consumption will probably be going to the pepsi-1 party at
clints house on saturday. i cant wait! it'll just be me and
the boys, oh and stefan :)

trav asked me to play bartender for him...so i made him a
tall screwdriver, which we both sucked down. then i made
him a tall coke with vodka, and another one...which we both
drank. yep, we were wasted. i just remember laughing the
whole night, i know i called andrew and was like, "um yeah
im sick of being fuck buddies with you, im sorry but i need
feelings, and there are none with us, because if there
were, you wouldnt do shit with other people...so whatever
we had, its over." then trav and i called stevie, and left
an annoying message. we called back to leave another, and
he woke up, pissy as fuck. trav kept going, "i have a
message for you: shibity hoo hoo, do, do do do, do, do do
do...(cranberries)." i was on the ground, rolling, you
should have been there, it was a mad party...members: 2.
then we called stefan and we talked to him for an hour or
so about the strongly anticipated pepsi-1 party. i think
sometime in the night, trav told stefan to kiss me, which
is slightly embarrassing. for the rest of the time we joked
around, and talked about stefmos lame ass breezers, haha,
WC up in the house. i love that kid. after the party slowed
up, and me as bartender, stopped delivering, trav
disappeared into sleep, while i stayed up playing solitaire
while listening to travs new DLed songs...what a loser.

i cleaned up, and got into bed at around 4.

for fun...

5 favorite actresses
-audrey tatou
-reese witherspoon
-charlieze theron
-cameron diaz
-gwyneth paltrow

5 favorite actors
-heath ledger
-jude law
-ryan philipe
-paul walker
-brad pitt
(also prince william is hot as fuck, but we're sticking to
movies)

3 favorite girl singers
-fiona apple
-bjork
-tori amos

3 favorite guy singers
-thom yorke
-chris cabarra
-brandon boyd

favorite book
-catcher in the rye

favorite movie
-amelie

NOTE: i finished franny and zooey awhile back, and it was
nothing compared to catcher in the rye. im sorry if someone
likes this book, but by the last page, theres still really
no point...well there is, but its a lame one: do everything
to your best for jesus. um ok, will do! haha, if youre
going to read anything by "the man" aka JD Salinger, then
read the best, the one, the classic: Catcher in the Rye.

new book: harry potter and the order of the phoenix (5)

songs
-never is a promise by fiona apple
-hurt by nine inch nails
-so into you by fabulous and ashanti
-drive by incubus
-silent all these years by tori amos

hotties
-stefan
(although i havent seen him, talking to him is enough)




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