chantelmarilyn

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2003-06-26 02:20:36 (UTC)

Blurty entries (ps, Im switching accounts w/ corey)

Subject: I want to get away, I wanna flyy away
Time: 6:09 pm.
Mood: inadaquete.
Music: Fan on high.

I hate her. My god, she makes me feel so inadaquite
sometimes. I think she's dying and it scares me to say that
I think I'll probabally be better off. I just wish I could
get rid of her, or me. I dont know, like, waste away
myself. I just want to scream so bad sometimes and tell her
that I could care less what she thinks about me...but the
truth is, I care A LOT! But I hate when she's all
like, "Doctor Phill says that if you're child disrepects
you, take away their keyboard." First of all ,I am not her
child. Second of all, taking away my keyboard wont fix
things. It would only make them worse. And she denies it
but she's always down on my about the church. "Ever since
you decided that where you ended up in the "eternities"
wasnt important youve been a horrible child". I just want
to get away sometime. Anyone want to come? Maybe if SOMEONE
would make plans w/ me during the summer I'd have some form
of escape but nobody does.

Most of my cuts are gone now...just scars. That's progress.

It's way to hot to do anything...I have an interveiw
tomorrow for Hi Spot Motor Court, which is pretty easy work
for fairly good money...so that's good, I guess.

Im also looking for a way to get a kickass layout up
here...I have the imae I want for it, and I know everything
I want. If only i could figure out ho wto post ina
community lol.

More later. Im staying at my dads tonight which is grand
cause he treats me so much better (when he isnt...angry.
He's kind of like the incredible hulk I gather.)




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