2003-06-25 19:00:06 (UTC)

the choice

even though i love my cousins to death there is a problem.
they drink and smoke and chew. and the always preesure me
into doing that kinda stuff. now yes i hae tried doing that
stuff before but now i have stopped and i am afraid that i
wont be strong enough to say no this time. because when i
say no they always make me feel like i am lower then dirt.
my b/f jonnny has kept me strong these last couple of days
but now he is grounded and cant talk to me for a week and i
dont no what to do... i have to make myself be strong but
at the sametime i remember how good it felt when they
wanted to hang out with me and when i was accepted by them