DramaQueen700

DramaQueen700
2003-06-24 03:11:46 (UTC)

Worst day of my LIFE!!!!!!!!

TADW........

All this month I was positive that I would get a lead in
CInderella. I could have staked my life on it.

But right before we went to look at the cast sheet, I got
this feeling that I would be in the chorus.

But i thought, "nah. it couldnt be."

I was a really large part last year in the wizard of Oz. I
was glinda the good witch. I thought for SURE i would be
bumped up to the next level of a lead role.

So i looked on the cast sheet. i looked all down the
roster...I didnt se my name. Alright alright. I moved to
Charlie and he choc. factory's sheet. My name wasnt there
either. Then sadly i moved over to the Hobbit call sheet. I
wasnt there EITHER! so i looked on Cinderella again. I
spotted my name. It was with alarge group of people. I look
up at the groups name.......

C H O R U S

WHAT THE FREAK?! I couldnt believe my eyes. It was a moment
in my life, the ONLY moment in fact, that i seriosuly
thought that i MUST be in a dream. HOW DID I GET CHORUS.
Mind you people who dont know me, I am (according to most
people dont think i am snobby) a really good singer, and I
suppose i am a good actress. SO HOW DD I GET CHORUS. I was
in another dimension of disbelief. SOOOOOO many names on
that cast sheet who were big roles were new people to the
program. WHAT?! Did someoen make a mistake? WHAT THE HELL
IS GOING ON!? I acted as tho everythign was fine for about
the first 15 minutes. Then the shit started to hit the fan.
I realized all i was feeling his whole month could not have
been further frm reality. I got the worst part possible. A
feww of my friends were in the same boat. But i was
differnt somehow. I had been at this program for FOUR
years! Most of thwm were in there 3rd year. Plus I HAD A
HUGE PART LAST YEAR! How could i have been demoted?

SO confused. I wanted to ask ed, the director for the music
in Cinderella what had io missed? What happened? What did i
do to put me in this place? But i lost my nerve. I didnt
wanna seem like a Diva. I think I had already gotten that
rep since i was so pissed off. I think that i was trying to
show all the other people there that i wasnt on there
level, and neither were some other people there. I AM NOT
ON THERE LEVEL. I am so much moer experianced, and frankly
talented. Some of these gurls cant sing/act for beans.

So confused right now. I complained to all of my friends.
but i dont think very many people got the part they wanted,
besides Zarah(stepsister), Monica(fairy g-mother), and Alex
(Cinderella).

A small tiny thing that pissed me off, was Tema(who got a
lead last year as Scarcrow), was cryign a lil and slightly
sad about getting Goluum in The Hobbit. THATS A LEAD. Bit i
am not one to talk. I was extremely disappointed too. Tema is
Sooooooooo talented she will make it great. But we seriosuly need her
to sing in Cinderella. She is a goo choral singer and hold a part
well.

ANYWAYZ>.........

So i was pretty iratble all afternoon. And when i got to my
car with my mom inside, i acted like it was okay. She knew
it wasnt. I slowly started to listen to her talkin about
possibly reasons why, or things i can look forward to. I
can only go up from here....etc. I slowly fellt hot tear
stream down my ace. I knew i qwould hafta wait a whole year
until I found out if i was going to feel rejected for no
reason or thankful that i got a small part so i could have
a a lead.

I cried harder and harder. I got home and layed myself on
the couch. Cried evenmore while my mom stroked my head and
we watched leagally blonde. I couldnt think about anything
else but teh disappoitment i had just mad myself out to be.

I went to my room, cried somemore, and slept for two hours.
I was in such a bad mood that I made an insult to God which
i sincerely regret.I think i am okay now. Honestly I cant
wait for this summer to end. Just wait, in two weeks, ill
be wanting to stay forever.

Hey maybe itll be a nice change of pace to be back in the
ol' chorus ensemble again. Like my mom says, you can only
go up from here.(you can also stay the same but thats
another story...)

As i always say...lief goes on, but i just might not play
the role i want...




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