Emily

One More in the World
2003-06-23 23:03:39 (UTC)

Regret Is The Worst Feeling

Well, I was supposed to stay at Amanda's tonight, that
fell through. I mean seriously, how said is if you get
rejected by your own sister?
Second, my brother went through and read MY log manager
for AIM... one conversation was talking about mine and
Freddie's past... it said how I gave him a handjob, but
that was the most we had done together. And he said "I'm
going to kick Freddie's ass." And I was like, "Well, it's
over and done with now, and it's not like he made me do
it." And he's like, "True, but I can't hit you, and just to
let you know I'm really disappointed in you and I've lost
so much respect for you, so laugh it up now until it comes
back and slaps you in the face."
I never thought that I'd regret things I've done. I think
regret is the worst feeling in the world. But Zak has a way
of making you feel like shit with everything, but only if
he wants to, otherwise he'll make you think it was the
funnest experience of your life. So now I feel like shit. I
love how I can live in a house with absolutely NO
privacy?... I hate it here. I want to leave. I asked him
why he went there, and he said he was bored. Well, sure,
I've gotten on his computer to get online, but NEVER have I
gone through anything of his personal. I hate this. I'm
supposed to to go the concert with him on Wednesday (Jack
Johnson and Ben Harper) but I don't want to look at him
ever again. I want to die.

Bye.




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