Timothy

Jack's Twisted Kingdom
2003-06-23 07:49:48 (UTC)

letter i shall never send


I sit here confessing my love to you. Wanting to be the one
you think about and the reason you do the things you do. I
ask why we can never be.

These questions you will never answer, because this letter I
will never send. I'll allow my heart to break, with a smile
on my face. You will see what I want you to see and know
what I want you to know, my true feelings for will be put in
these letters that have no where to go.

How can you throw out this betrayal? Instead of letting me
think I still had a chance?

These questions you will never answer and these comments you
will never hear. I'll allow my heart to break with a smile
on my face. You will see what I want you to see and know
what I want you to know. My true feelings will be put in
these letters that have no where to go.

You want to be the best of friends, since that's all you
feel for me, but you led me on for months? Do you know what
that's done to me? I hate you in ways you'll never know. But
I still want to be your friend so these words and feelings
I'll never show.

You say that you are sorry, you didn't mean for this to
occur. I know it twas not to be, but it’s not something you
tried to halt. Why is it I can never come out on top? I
despise what you've done and how you've made me feel. But
I'll give you and him my blessings, never letting you know
it’s not real.

I'll sit here and smile, while my heart withers and cries
doing everything I can do to hold the tears inside. As I
throw away this letter, and try to keep my pride.

Never knowing, perhaps, I should have lied, but I must know
everything, and in the end, no matter the pain, the hurt, or
the slow death of my love...

I am still here, awaiting a sign. a touch, a kiss, perhaps,
even a slow wave of your hand, an acknowledgement at the
very least.

I can still try.

I am void.

And I die.


~T