SpaceyGrlR

Zoinks
2003-06-21 22:01:13 (UTC)

Solitude

I am denying my past, I am immersed in an imaginary future.
I'm pushing people out of my space.
My aim is to feel no fear towards myself or others.

Introspection/meditation.
Reading.
Pacing back and forth.
Music.
And then there's jumping up and down on my bed.
And playing dress-up.
And taking 2 hour baths in the dark.

A couple days ago I had a deep conversation with my rubber
ducky in the bath tub. As I stared into his full yellow
face, rubber-smooth, slowly drifting towards me in the
water, he seemed to posess his own spirit and personality. I
began in a soft whiney voice to tell him some of the things
I've been thinking about lately. And he listened with an
uncritical openness like no real person ever could.