WickedAnarchyFromHell

Simply Blah
2003-06-21 19:25:17 (UTC)

No Longer Worth It

As of this moment...I'm completely washing my hands of
Mike.. and it still hurts.. But I've got to.. He's never
gonna want me back, so I've just...got to move on.. I'll
find someone else..or..something...Who the hell am I
kidding with this? I'm so fucking confused right
now...Cortni and I are talking...I wonder if I had known
what was going to happen in the end, would I have done it
anyhow? Would I have changed anything? I dunno...I'd have
dated him, defiently...but I would have been...I
dunno...better...I'd have been everything he wanted me to
be... God. "to have loved and lost is better than to never
have loved at all"..what Bull Shit. Maybe I really am
blowing this out of size... Maybe I just need to blame it
on not having anything else to hold on to.. Maybe I'm just
a stupid teenager... Maybe, maybe, maybe. I sound like such
a lifeless cry-baby...hah...oh well.. I'm not... I just
like to vent... I don't blame Mike for not loving me.. I do
blame him for telling me he always would, though.. I'm
tired of everyone I know not loving me.. and I'm beginning
to accept the fact that no one may EVER love me...so boo-
hoo me, get over myself.. Fuck it all.. I'm out... "Love"
ya.




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