Wildthing1983
Me and More
Well fuck....
Dear Diary,
Things aren't much better. My jealousy is finally coming
under control, but my emotions are still ten fold and I'm
still fucking confused, and pissed of at certain people.
I'm not sure what to do. Here's the perfect song to put my
feelings and life at this moment into aspect.
Crawling
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/I can't seem to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that
there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem...
to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced that
there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
so insecure
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing confusing what is real
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing what is real
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling/confusing what is real
I'm not sure what to do anymore. I'm not sure to live or
die, love or lose, play or sulk, work or not work. Things
are so outta control with me at this moment I'm not sure
what is up or down, left or right. I feel like my life is
spinning outta control. New feelings, new respect, new
people, new love, new lose. So much to take in.
I have no fucking clue of what I'm even saying any more.
So, on that note I'm wrapping it up. Maybe I'll have a
better day tomorrow. *shrugs* Doubt it.
-Heather