ShadowDawn

aRegretfulSerenity
2003-06-21 03:08:16 (UTC)

If-Onlys that Never-Will

2nite wz an interesting party!
and this time, im not talking about the parties that
teens think of these days, with the law-bending shits and
all. i mean an actual birthday party. we did one of those
*how to host a mystery* things. now that was great!
but on another note: curtis is getting back 2marrow! from
a whole 10 days in italy with jems! how cool is that? ...i
wonder if jems got me that spoon?...
ok, i guess its safe to talk about this since i kno
curtis doesnt read my diary thingy.
heres the thing: i can almost guarentee u that
*eventhough* curtis said he wz over jems that this whole
trip started that up again. hes gonna come back and have
that same obsession w/ her again, which is a bit
disappointing, cuz he kinda gave the impression b4 he left
that he mightve liked me...
ha! him liking me! wht r the chances of that, rite? i
mean cmon! its me! ive known the kid 5 years and only once
did he ever seem to have any interest in me! and that wz
only bc i wz second best compared to jems; the *fall-back*
option...
hell, wht am i saying? i dunno kno that for sure, do i? i
dont have any proof of nuffin, man! nothing i ever say has
any back-up other than wht i infer from observations,
especially the assumtions i make about other ppl's
behaviors. oh well, its wht i do...
...that, and think about wht could be. i seem to dwell a
lot on those things these days. i waste 2 much time
wondering about the *If-Onlys that Never-Will*. but theres
nothing i can do about it. i mean, they simply just never
will happen, and thats the way things work...

...but wouldnt be so nice if, just this once, it did?


*Untill 2marroW*
~MaxWood~




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