No Paranoia

Laugh Until My Head Comes Off
2003-06-18 05:54:26 (UTC)

Outbacker

Sitting there was amazing. Overwhelmed with thought and
emotion, not to mention energy. Containing myself felt
impossible. The sad thing is; I wasn't doing a thing other
than thinking of him. Knowing he's going to be departing
soon, go to a new place. I've known him my whole life.
Sure we didn't always get along, but how many people in our
relation do? Now, tho... Now we can be the best of
friends. I don't recall the last time we honestly argued.

Why is it every time I think of him (I do not lie) I cry?
Just his name can set my heart to overdrive. I recall my
friend commenting on how well we get along, and I just fell
to tears all night long. Nothing could stop me. It breaks
my heart to think of him leaving. No, it's not just as
simple as leaving- 'cause he's not coming back. He's
always been there and soon he will be gone.

I worry for his soul more than one might imagine I would,
or even could. He deserves so much better than what has
been given to him. So intelligent. Why did he give up?
So many times he's tried and quit, tho I suppose I know
why. And now, because he's sick of failure, he wants to be
taken to a place where he can learn to be of higher
standards and become something well appreciated.

*Tears*

I will miss him. I miss him on eves of which he leaves me
alone. I worry when I don't hear from him and I sure as
Hell feel bad when he runs from life's problems.

I'm to be left
Here
Without him.

I love my Brother and I wish him the best of luck to become
all he can be in whatever he does.

*Love you Anthony!*




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