Mercedes

you cant escape what makes you tragic
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2003-06-17 03:18:01 (UTC)

finals and bitches

the first day of finals was today...hmm fun. NO. fuck..i
hate all these stupid tests and shit but alas, one must.
b/c we get out early (around 11 20) my new bff ashly and
her bf lamont came over...my mom saw them kissing (just one
kiss really) on the bed and fuck! she freaked out like the
were going at it and took them home. she talked to a's dad
too. she said she was about to go down on him and all this
other shit (which she deneys saying to me even tho she did)
god shes sucha bitch. now im not allowd to hang w/ ash
anymore. oh well. ill just let my mom cool off for a while
and when i get back from vacation i'll invite her over
anyway...
hmm vacation. im not even really sure i want to go but b/c
its w/ my friend and his fam itll give me some time away
from mine so i'll go anyway.
my ss teach mr nerz called today and told my mom that i
have a 90 this mp (he is syked b/c ive been doing really
shitty in that class all year even tho 'im one of the
smartest kids in my class' he thinks im one of those
intellectual artsy types that just doesnt do good with
schoolwork and shit. hes right.)

im not reall good at fittin in with other people. i mean,
im good at pretending i do (although sometimes it seems
like im not, if you knew how i realy felt youd give me a
fuckin oscar) but i feel really detached from everything.
maybe everyone does. i guess im just confused. i feel like
this big blob of energy thats fuled by art and music and
theater and shit but cant mix well with everything else.
like oil and water, im in a state of constant heart ache.


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