Epika581

Erika's Brain Farts
2003-06-17 01:37:41 (UTC)

Fuck you dude

Reader beware: I am venting
Why do people use other people? How can they go about
their life knowing that they've used people? That they've
stepped on them and walked all over them? Do they not see
that person for what they really are, a person??? I just
cant understand how someone can do it, unless they hate
them. Still, i would feel guilty. I'm so fed up with so
many people giving me empty promises lately. I really
cant think of a single person that hasnt given me an empty
promis. I HATE empty promises. The only person that i
can really think of is Leslie. So if you've given me an
empty promis, fuck you. U know, i always try and stay
happy in my diary, not put blame on people, but now, i'm
sick of it. I'm sick of you, all you people. you need to
pull ur heads outta ur asses. All of you. This is in no
way aimed at any single person. Its aimed at all of you.
I dont care who you are, you need to take a step back from
your perfect view of yourself. Stop being so god damned
egotistical. This goes for everyone. Even myself. I've
taken a step back and have re-asessed myself. What do i
need to fix? how can i be a better person? i do this ALL
the time. But then one of YOU come along. And treat me
like shit. and i think, why do i try? Why do i care
about these people who care nothing about me?? Why do i
give these people all the respect i can give, and LET them
walk all over me. Sometimes i let them walk all over me
willingly. Why do i do it? i always ask myself that. If
a kid sticks his finger in an outlet, he gets a shock, and
learns not to stick their finger in that outlett. But
obviously, i must be mentally retarded, cuz i keep
sticking my finger in that god-damned outlet. I'm so sick
of so many things. Seriously think about sometime in your
life where you've used someone, or done something
indecent. Weather it was something big, or a little
thing. Did u ever stop and think about how you've just
affected that person's life? and even how you've just
affected yours? How you've just made your life, and
your "friend's" life a little more worse for wear?
Another pet peve: you hate or are angry at a person for
doing something or acting some way, when in actuallity,
you do it yourself all the time. You just contradict.
And hey, if you can think of a time where i've hurt you,
or done something indecent to you, tell me. Bitch me out
about it, i deserve it. Its the least you could do for
me. *sigh* my anger is short lived. Now i'm just sad.
I feel very alone. I dont know if i can take the fakeness
anymore. Everything everwhere is just an act. All people
are just the directors and actors of their own plays. No
care about anybody else's screenplay. Its their way....or
the shredder way.




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