Jams

Lesbian....Yes!
2003-06-15 23:06:43 (UTC)

June 12th (Soprano sit down)

I got off work early to meet up with Chris, Devon and
Cathy for our sit down. I knew it had to be something
about the tense situation with Jewel but I wasn't sure in
which direction it was going to go. So we met up at Urban
Grind and had our small talk first. You know, the how goes
it and the where ya been. Then Devon got into what we were
there for.

It happened that Devon wanted to assure us that her
distancing herself from us wasn't about us. Basically she
was feeling that if she had wanted to ask us to join in on
something we had planned it would cause some sort of
friction if Jewel were going as well. She didn't want us
to be in the same middle position we have been in since
this whole thing started a year ago. Speaking of, a year
ago and still things are pretty tense between the two of
them. You would think that things would have come to a
peaceful hate where they agree to be civil.

I guess if I really hated someone I wouldn't want to hang
with them either. But then again, I have never had former
friends that I absolutely can't stand now. Sure there are
people in our friend outlet whom I don't find much in
common with or they have done something I am not fond of,
but that doesn't keep me from doing things when they are
around. But then again, hate is not a dislike.

Here's my take on the whole damn thing: Fuck it!!! I am so
sick of having to be in the middle of something I have no
control over and I am not really part of. Whatever goes on
in Jewel's brain about Devon and vice cersa should be kept
to themselves. Personally I think this whole thing is a
waste of energy. My summer is going to be filled with
happiness and joy and noone is going to spoil that for me.

So yeah after that conversation Chris, this guy and I met
up with Jen at this bonfire in OB which was pretty much
bunk in the way of, I don't really get along with straight
guys very often. So we went to Jen's for a spell and then
I got sleepy and we left. I dropped off the guy and Chris
and went home to crash.




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