Brownie72787

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2003-06-15 05:30:59 (UTC)

Philosophical dribble

Sometimes i hate the world...b/c nothing in it is right...
i ask myself what the fuck am i doing...and there are no
answers.... is there even a gad/ goddess out there to hear
my silent prayers? just to know if this is right or not?
how am i suposed to make the right choice if i am blinded
by everything...who the fuck made up this game anyways? and
why does it seem like i am the one with the bad hand.. i
could always bluff...or just throw down my cards and
fold..i fucking hate when i feel like this...when i know i
shouldnt.. i have great things, and sometimes i take them
for granted and dont see them for what they are. life is
full of so much confusion, and i get by day to day...but
how much longer can i continue on like this before i snap?
before i decide that i am through with everything and just
go? i think about so many things and there is no one i can
truly express my TRUE thoughts and feelings too...my "best
friend" in the whole world, calls once a year, and talks to
me online for five min at a time....we live 20 min away and
still we are apart and i do not tell her anything....and
the others close to me do not see things how i see it...so
they think i am just being depressing...i think about
things like.. who would i run to if i just couldnt take any
more..if i was just about to pull the trigger...who would i
call? sometimes i think...NO ONE! but that is enough of my
depressing rambling...l8r..christi


m00d: depressed
m00sic: buried myself alive_ the used




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