Solace

souless
2003-06-14 04:07:34 (UTC)

Step by Step

So I went there for memorial day weekend. Was very nice
and dunno if people there are beginning to wonder if
something is going on or not...I could not talk or look at
his mom since she asked if we were having an affair. My
car broke down and he insisted i take it to his house so
his stepdad could look at it. So I was forced to speak
with his mom who was simply wonderful. Knowing how my mom
was she would be kind to a person like me and either decide
she did not want to tell him what to do or she would be
quiet so he would not do the opposite of what she
reccommends...Is she like that? I dunno. A couple of his
friends do not seem suprised to see me. I want him to be
the right one for me. I want him for a stepdad to my son.
I want him to be happy more than that. I love him.

England has been suprising me and staying better in touch.
I used to worry he was using me but the other night he
asked me how each friend I had on the net was doing...by
name...even if they were mentioned once. For a guy with 50
online girlfriends, I am having a hard time believing that
I am not important to him. He can be very scattered and
yet the other night as he asked about all the people I
never realized he listened about over the last year and a
half, especially a pilot that means nothing to me but must
a seemed like quite the catch to him...I cannot help but
wonder...I love him too.




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