gcbaby4life420

my life
2003-06-14 03:50:39 (UTC)

hes crying, now im crying

why the FUCK do i have to get emotionally involved in this
shit! i should have NEVER got involved with Bedo.
i dont know what the fucking god damn hell is wrong with
him right now, he said that he fucked up again, and he
said hes crying and that he hasnt cried in 8 years. hes
being pissy to me, kinda.
just confusing, he wont tell me what happened or whats
wrong. i dont know what to do. he said he was gunna kill
himself. i want to be pissed at him cuz he didnt call, and
cuz hes acting mean.

but then i have to understand that hes in a bad mood and i
need to be supportive cuz something bad happened.
read:

GrInGoGio: im sorry i dont think i can call u tonite
GrInGoGio: ill try but
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: ok
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: its all good
GrInGoGio: im sorry i fucked up
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: wat happened
GrInGoGio: long fuckin story
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: ic
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: i got time
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: unless u dont want to tell me
GrInGoGio: i dont
GrInGoGio: ill tell u just not now
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: u dont want to tell me or u dont got time
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: ok
GrInGoGio: gd
GrInGoGio: im fuckin crien
GrInGoGio: i havent cried 4 like 8 yrs.
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: can u tell me ANYTHING that happened?
GrInGoGio: i will
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: when
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: if i sign off w/out saying goodbye its
cuz this connection is fucked up cuz my mom took the DSL
with her, so if u can...stay on and i would be back within
like 5 minutes if i get kicked, but if u gotta go b4 i
come back ,then email me or call me 2marrow or whenever u
can. im not sayin im gunna get off now or kicked or
anything im just warning u
GrInGoGio: i dont kare right now
GrInGoGio: ill talk to ya later
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: uhh ok
GrInGoGio: im sorry
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: yeah ok
GrInGoGio: i hate my life
GrInGoGio: im gunna kill myself
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: dont
GrInGoGio: i am
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: if u do ill be really sad
GrInGoGio: no
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: suicide is a permanent solution to a
temporary problem

Auto response from GrInGoGio: BBL i fucked up again


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so then i just sat there. i wanted to be mad, but then i
thought that i have no idea what happened tonite, so i
have no right to judge how hes acting, cuz shit happens.
but i didnt know what to do. so then he IMed me again 5
minutes later...

GrInGoGio: well sorry genious
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: what
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: dont go anywhere brb PLEASE dont go
anywhere
GrInGoGio: w/e

Auto response from CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: ONE sec


CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: dude wtf
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: can u plz tell me whats wrong
GrInGoGio: leave me the fuck a lone never fuckin talk to
me again if ur gunna be a bitch towards me
GrInGoGio: i cant fuckin help it
GrInGoGio: so sorry
GrInGoGio signed off at 10:31:31 PM.

****

i didnt know what to do. i just sat there and stared at
the screen. then i was really pissed, cuz of all the shit
he's said to me. i didnt understand why he was acting like
this.

then my cell phone rings. it was Bedo. i picked it up and
was like "hello" REALLY monotone, hes like "hey" he was
crying. i said "hi" in a mad voice but then
he just burstes out crying and hes balling and telling me
how sorry he is and that he cant talk now but he will try
to talk to me later, but he is seriously balling to me, i
totally calmmed down and was sincere to him and said ok.
then we got off the phone and i burste out crying.

i dont even know why. but i guess that right now he means
sooo much to me and i cant believe how hard he was crying.
it hurt me sooo bad to hear that. so then i was balling,
AM balling. cuz i dont know what to do.

he signs back on:

GrInGoGio signed on at 10:36:20 PM.
GrInGoGio: im need drugd
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: what
GrInGoGio: do u work tomorrow
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: yes
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: 10-2
GrInGoGio: k
CheRRyPoPSiCLe96: why?
GrInGoGio: bc

hes still on and hasnt said a word since. i dont know what
to doooo.
i feel soo bad for him, but i dont want to talk to him on
here cuz hes so mad that his additude is so bad that it
just makes me like him less and be pissed at him. but god
im so lost right now. i dont know whats wrong.

if u know me or him and u read this...do NOT talk to
anybody about this. he probly doesnt want his shit all
over. thanks




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