Alisha

My luck

Yeah, it's friday the 13th, and it's kicking my ass...sorta.

See...i got on floor, pretty good time there, actually,
even though i hate waitressing....but still, im starting to
like it a bit more.

Yeah, thats about all the good news.

Me head hurts, my stomach hurts....and i feel like im gonna
puke, why is this bad??? BECAUSE REGENTS WEEK IS NEXT
WEEK!!! I can't be sick on regents week...nuh uh...NO WAY.

What else? Well...let's just say i've gotten myself into a
slight mess...but i can't say...only because i wanna keep
it between me...and myself. :) lol. It's always good.

Hmm....Oh, i've found out that i don't like it when people
grow up...especially before i make it there. I dunno, it
bugs me.

My friend...ugh...i dunno, its odd.

I can't even say on here, ya think i could...i dunno why im
not. I HATE BEING VAGUE!!!

I'm scared.
I'm scared of life.
I'm scared of dating someone.
I'm scared of commitment.
I'm scared of my freaking messed up feelings.
I'm scared that im not gonna be a senior next year.
I'm scared that i'm gonna ruin something great.
I'm scared of MYSELF.

Yeah, that's whats bothering me...without being AS vague.

I smell like pondo, but im not feeling up to taking a
shower, that REALLY sucks. I'll prolly end up passing out
right here...or just crawling into my bed, and sleeping
forever.
BUT OH WAIT!! I CANT!! I HAVE FREAKING REVIEW SESSIONS IN
THE MORNING!!!

I hate school.
I CANNOT wait til it's over.
But then i have drivers ed. But that should be
cool...unless the teacher dude says i suck...and that would
suck, considering i have my license.

Ew. My nieces are here. THAT will help my night...riiight.

I miss simple days. I really do. I think i need to go cheer
up, go to bed or SOMETHING, cause im annoying myself with
all my whining.

Yeah...I'm gonna go now. Lol...night!

I think i'm gonna have a smoke. Yes. Me. SMOKE.