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2003-06-11 11:10:00 (UTC)

Confused

Did I REALLY wrong you?
I don't see it...even if I finally apologized
I didn't mean it but I just wanted to be happy
Either you can be happy or right
At that point I didn't care because clearly you are
IMPOSSIBLE and I can't win
I told you what you wanted to hear
WASN'T THAT ENOUGH?
I told others about our situation they seemed to
sympathize with me
WHAT A JERK YOU ARE!
Only one sympathized with you and said
'Well, can you blame him?' Still he didnt say you were
right
Someone even told me that I did the right thing.
I know I did even if it wasn't fair for you.
How could I know if I could trust you or not?
ESPECIALLY with that lousy attitude.
I pay attention all the time and listen
Did you think I wouldn't pick up on it.
I wanted someone to help me who didn't think
That I was a burden.
So in a way you bastard YOU DESERVED IT
Whatever it was. I'm glad you suffered.
I sufferend too but only because of you.
You could have been more understanding
Especially after what I told you.
You decided to be a pig.
So different from the kind person I thought you were

Maybe you are so self absorbed
Or maybe I didn't pay much attention to you
Until we had that stupid fight about
NOTHING IMPORTANT
I really don't understand you.
I know everyone else will abuse you
But somehow you wanted to lash out at me
JUST FOR BEING THERE?
Maybe I should have left like the others?
I'm tired of figuring this out.

Maybe you have no feelings
Just like any other man.
I can't say that I care for men.
You are just a block of ice
I told you I didn't like that.
I tried to not be close to you
Because I thought 'Oh my God'
He is not human he has no feelings
Then you got jealous
So I thought 'Ok maybe he has feelings'

So I probably said something that offended you?
I was honest though.
So maybe all the talking you did
Wasn't like you?
I thought maybe you were different
When you were just ACTING like a human being earlier
Maybe I was completely wrong about you.
Maybe we will NEVER speak again.

Would that be so bad?
No I don't think so.
Maybe caring about you was a mistake.

I can do it I can try to love other people
A little bit more
Even if they have ulterior motives
And I trust them even less
Than I trusted you


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