Crazy12day

The confusing epic of muh life
2003-06-11 07:55:22 (UTC)

i dont kno wut i jus did

CrAzY CuTiE30303: ok
CTown Thuggin480: you like m
CTown Thuggin480: e
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y r u so stuck on this
CTown Thuggin480: dude i need to talk to someone
CTown Thuggin480: here
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and y didnt u ever give meh a reason
CTown Thuggin480: i have been offered the chance to start
selling again
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ok
CTown Thuggin480: idk what to take on it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and wut is ur reasoning
CTown Thuggin480: idk
CTown Thuggin480: i kinda wanna do it
CTown Thuggin480: for the money
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y
CTown Thuggin480: i wanna get sam this ring
CTown Thuggin480: the ring i been wanting to get her
CrAzY CuTiE30303: idk i mean u c this whole thing as an
oppertunity to get her sumfin
CrAzY CuTiE30303: but
CTown Thuggin480: yeah
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i dont think u should hurt urself
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i mean u c it as samantha is worth the
trouble
CTown Thuggin480: i got protection
CTown Thuggin480: you know i do
CTown Thuggin480: no body will fuck with me again
CrAzY CuTiE30303: yea
CrAzY CuTiE30303: but ivan no 1 is gunna wan to c u get
hurt over this
CTown Thuggin480: thanks you helped me decide to do it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: esspecially sam
CrAzY CuTiE30303: r u listening ?
CTown Thuggin480: yeah
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and emma says ''dont do it'' thats
serious shit
CTown Thuggin480: idc if i die
CrAzY CuTiE30303: 4 ur self and sam
CrAzY CuTiE30303: yes but other people do
CTown Thuggin480: dude i wanna do it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y
CTown Thuggin480: for sam
CTown Thuggin480: for myself
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i dont think this is the rite way to go
about it
CTown Thuggin480: i will suceed
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u should get sum sort of honest job
CTown Thuggin480: i will own chandler
CrAzY CuTiE30303: omg
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u r being so stupid
CTown Thuggin480: its just pot
CrAzY CuTiE30303: so wut
CTown Thuggin480: and cokain
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ur hurting and killing other people
CTown Thuggin480: who is?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ur
CTown Thuggin480: how?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ull be selling to people who r slowly
killing themselves
CTown Thuggin480: if not me then someone els
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ur giving them a habit
CTown Thuggin480: so why not let me collect some money
CrAzY CuTiE30303: not reli
CTown Thuggin480: they really could just get it from someone
CTown Thuggin480: you know how im connected now?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: plz dont do this
CTown Thuggin480: imagine me like 50x more connected
CTown Thuggin480: i could have people watch out for sam for
me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: yes but look at these people
CTown Thuggin480: like incase sumthin happens to her
CTown Thuggin480: they wont turn on me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: who r u connecting and associating w/
CTown Thuggin480: i cant tell you who
CTown Thuggin480: not even jordan knows
CrAzY CuTiE30303: im not asking u
CrAzY CuTiE30303: im saying look at these people
CrAzY CuTiE30303: wut kinda people r they
CrAzY CuTiE30303: r they seriously people u want to be
around
CTown Thuggin480: ruthless
CTown Thuggin480: they wouldnt turn on me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and that makes it ok ?
CTown Thuggin480: yes
CTown Thuggin480: ive never sold cocain before
CrAzY CuTiE30303: its not tho
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u being involoved in this just makes her
more vonerable to be hurt
CrAzY CuTiE30303: not only by u but by these crazy people
ur hanging out w/
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u kno how crazy people get
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u said it ur self they will do ne thing
for more
CTown Thuggin480: i wouldnt let them hurt her
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and if that includes hitting u where it
hurts (sam) theymay do it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u rnt there all the time
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u cant b its impossible
CTown Thuggin480: then i wont let anyone know about her
CTown Thuggin480: they cant find her
CrAzY CuTiE30303: they r going 2 c u w/ her eventually
CTown Thuggin480: i wouldnt let anything happen to her you
know it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u kno that this isnt tne rite thing to do
CrAzY CuTiE30303: or u wouldnt have asked meh b cuz u knew
wut muh answer would consist of
CTown Thuggin480: i can handle this
CrAzY CuTiE30303: no
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u cant
CTown Thuggin480: i have a knife
CTown Thuggin480: and i can get a gun
CrAzY CuTiE30303: thats diggin r self even deeper
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ur*
CrAzY CuTiE30303: sub consiously u kno this is wrong
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u want sum 1 to tell u its ok
CTown Thuggin480: i just want her to feel like shes special
CTown Thuggin480: i want her to have this ring
CTown Thuggin480: i want power
CTown Thuggin480: i want money
CrAzY CuTiE30303: if u want sam to love u and trust u u
need to stop this whole power thing
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u want to do this 4 ur self
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u r using this ring to symbolise the
amount of respect power and love u think u deserve
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ur going about all this in the wrong way
CrAzY CuTiE30303: sam can get materialistic things frum ne
1 but she can only get ur love and emotion frum u
CrAzY CuTiE30303: she would rather have u arund than a ring
CTown Thuggin480: ill be around
CTown Thuggin480: ill just be busy sometimes
CTown Thuggin480: but ill make time for her
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ur not listening to me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ivan u r just complicating things more
for her and ur self
CTown Thuggin480: i can do it without telling her
CrAzY CuTiE30303: dont lie to her
CrAzY CuTiE30303: plz
CTown Thuggin480: i would tell her eventualy
CrAzY CuTiE30303: shes been lied to enuf
CrAzY CuTiE30303: no
CTown Thuggin480: but just not now
CrAzY CuTiE30303: its not rite
CrAzY CuTiE30303: plz
CrAzY CuTiE30303: of anything
CrAzY CuTiE30303: never lie
CrAzY CuTiE30303: esspecially to her
CTown Thuggin480: fine i wont do it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: r u ling ?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: lying*
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ivan ?
CTown Thuggin480: no
CTown Thuggin480: i gotta go
CrAzY CuTiE30303: no
CTown Thuggin480: im tired
CTown Thuggin480: not a word of this to sam
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u never ga ve meh muh reason
CTown Thuggin480: cuz i just wanna know
CrAzY CuTiE30303: not that
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y r u being mean to meh in front of people
CTown Thuggin480: look everything fucked up when sam came
back
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and the other answer can not be cuz i
wanna no
CTown Thuggin480: i didnt know she would take it like this
CrAzY CuTiE30303: take wut like wut
CTown Thuggin480: all pissed about it
CrAzY CuTiE30303: wut u think shed do jump 4 joy ?
CTown Thuggin480: yes
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y do u think i was so scared about her
coming bac ?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: but things change rite
CrAzY CuTiE30303: wut r u gunna do
CTown Thuggin480: things can be normal now
CrAzY CuTiE30303: normal?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: the whole thing is abnormal
CTown Thuggin480: it wont be
CTown Thuggin480: just let the wrinkles smooth ok?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: wut do u mean by that
CTown Thuggin480: just let things settle for a bit
CrAzY CuTiE30303: wut r u trying to say ?
CTown Thuggin480: just give this time
CrAzY CuTiE30303: wut ?
CTown Thuggin480: i got alot on my mind
CrAzY CuTiE30303: omg
CTown Thuggin480: all of this
CrAzY CuTiE30303: no way
CrAzY CuTiE30303: shitr
CTown Thuggin480: no way?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: do u still look @ the stars ?
CTown Thuggin480: yeah when i need answers
CrAzY CuTiE30303: o
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ic...
CTown Thuggin480: the stars never stear me wrong
CTown Thuggin480: or lie
CrAzY CuTiE30303: r u sure about that 1 ?
CTown Thuggin480: yeah
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i feel lost
CTown Thuggin480: look i got some thinking to do
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ive been having strange dreams
CTown Thuggin480: like?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: ic
CrAzY CuTiE30303: idk i can never remember exact events
but there is alot of anger and emotion and idk just so much
feeling and they just seem to lead meh in circles
CrAzY CuTiE30303: but i juz cant stop listening to these
two vanessa carolton songs
CrAzY CuTiE30303: they just seem to release alot and i dont
kno y or how they just do
CTown Thuggin480: wierd
CTown Thuggin480: i cant stop listening to this metallica
song
CrAzY CuTiE30303: crazy
CTown Thuggin480: St. Anger
CrAzY CuTiE30303: omg
CTown Thuggin480: ??
CrAzY CuTiE30303: idk sean always makes meh listen to
metallica on the fone
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and he made meh listen 2 that song a few
nites ago
CTown Thuggin480: yeah
CrAzY CuTiE30303: it was weird
CTown Thuggin480: get these songs
CTown Thuggin480: Cold-Gone Away
CTown Thuggin480: cold-no one
CrAzY CuTiE30303: it seems like he always has the answers
CTown Thuggin480: cold-bleed
CrAzY CuTiE30303: k
CrAzY CuTiE30303: omg
CrAzY CuTiE30303: this is getting to weird
CrAzY CuTiE30303: he has all the answers
CrAzY CuTiE30303: hey by the way
CrAzY CuTiE30303: thank u
CTown Thuggin480: for?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: idk giving meh all these retarded feelings
CrAzY CuTiE30303: lol
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i mean they have made meh open up alot
more
CrAzY CuTiE30303: more than i have in a while
CTown Thuggin480: cool
CTown Thuggin480: do you still like me?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and give me a real reason not a cuz i
wanna no
CTown Thuggin480: becuz he helps me out with what i am
thinking
CrAzY CuTiE30303: he ?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y wut r u think about ?
CTown Thuggin480: just alot of things
CTown Thuggin480: i dont wanna share
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y dont u
CTown Thuggin480: cuz its better this way
CTown Thuggin480: just tell me
CTown Thuggin480: do you like me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: how
CTown Thuggin480: cuz it is
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i think u kno the answer
CTown Thuggin480: stop this question reversal
CTown Thuggin480: do you or not
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u kno the answer
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i dont have 2 tell u
CTown Thuggin480: no i don
CrAzY CuTiE30303: the stars will reveal the answer
CTown Thuggin480: i have no clue
CTown Thuggin480: TELL ME
CTown Thuggin480: i wanna be sure
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i think ur
CrAzY CuTiE30303: thats the part that scares u about me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i nevr have 2 tell u
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u just kno
CTown Thuggin480: i want you to tell me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: the answer lives within u
CTown Thuggin480: just this once
CrAzY CuTiE30303: the answer lives within u
CTown Thuggin480: stop
CTown Thuggin480: just give it to me
CrAzY CuTiE30303: no
CTown Thuggin480: its a no?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: y must i give it to u u alreadi have it
CTown Thuggin480: i gotta be sure
CTown Thuggin480: what if im wrong?
CrAzY CuTiE30303: u kno ur not
CTown Thuggin480: you do
CrAzY CuTiE30303: youve looked into muh eyes
CTown Thuggin480: man i gotta think, im gonna go. call me
tommorow about 3:30
CrAzY CuTiE30303: and wut have u seen?
CTown Thuggin480: good night lauren
CrAzY CuTiE30303: good nite...
CrAzY CuTiE30303: sabien

Auto response from CTown Thuggin480: Should i take this
oppertunity or should i look the other way............

CrAzY CuTiE30303: i think tahts how u spell it
CTown Thuggin480: Phabian
CTown Thuggin480: its phabian
CrAzY CuTiE30303: lol
CrAzY CuTiE30303: phabian
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i c
CrAzY CuTiE30303: so ive been pronouncing it wrong
CrAzY CuTiE30303: sri
CTown Thuggin480: yes
CrAzY CuTiE30303: i didnt mean to




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