gcbaby4life420

my life
2003-06-11 00:29:06 (UTC)

wats the point of a diary if u cant even say what u want to

sometimes i wish that no-one i knew read this diary, cuz i
wish that i could just write EXACTLY what i think and feel
about certain ppl, or EXACTLY what i do.
and for the most part...im pretty honest. but tehre are
times when i get sooo pissed at someone and i just want to
come on here and bitch about it,
but then i stop. cuz i remember...they might read it,
ANYONE might read it.
now, i dont care about ppl that i dont know reading it,
cuz they dont know me so they cant judge me. but the ppl
that i know...if they read it, they can judge me, AND get
pretty pissed at me.

so whats the point of even having this diary? when there
are things i cant say, when i want to...
someone stole something i wrote in my Profile again.
damnit, i hate that. even when its my best friend (which
its not) i hate it.

also there is this one relationship, that i just need to
move on from. i need to cut off ties and just move on. but
i cant say who it is or why, cuz....they might read it.

AND...there is this ONE thing that i did that i want sooo
bad to talk about, and just get off my chest. but of
course...i cant. u kno why

****
ok well anyways, enough bitching, cuz i cant do nothin
about it. already tried.

i called Justin earlier, ask him why he called. he said it
wasnt him ,it was mike and they just wanted to see what i
was doing. i havent got to talk to mike yet.
Bedo called a little bit ago, after he got back from that
girls house. he said he cant do anything tonite, and he
didnt seem too sorry. but he DID say that he wants to go
to summerfest with me.
and of course i want to, but i REALLY dont want to get
involved with him right now. i have a bad feeling.

Tomarrow i have an orientation at Dennys to go to, im
hired. now i gotta start the training, then...ill be a
waitress! saweet. yeah the tips are supposed to be really
good there, hopefully they are good enough to be able to
quit Once Upon A Child. i dunno

Me and my mom have been fighting, i have been trying to
talk her into letting me go to Tartan this fall, but she
is just talkin bull shit saying no. but i refuse to be
Homeschooled for one more year...i HATE being
a "homeschool kid" .... gay




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