OrganizedConfusion

Conversation Peace
2003-06-08 05:41:14 (UTC)

long anticipated update

Dear Journal,
I am incredably calm right now. It is kind of cool. I
don't know. I am not calm but I am kind of care free
observant like. I drove Mike to a movie. 2 fast 2 furious.
That was a cool movie. The guy in it had some amazing ass
eyes. I don't know what it was. They could glow and light
up a dark room or something. It is crazy how cool peoples
eyes can be. Mike had some adorable little baby eyes. They
took up more room on his face then anything. He still has
them but his glasses kind of cover them up. He looks so
different without glasses. It is kind of fun to watch him
without them on because his eyes are so pretty. They are
almost girlish, but that isn't a bad thing, that just means
they are pretty. Anyway I want a hot pink car now. That
would so rock dude. Too bad I don't know shit about cars.
I'll just have someone that knows something pick one out
for me to buy with my imaginary money and then I'll get a
nice paint job with some more imaginary money and I will be
all set. Man driving after that movie was kind of fun. At
first I didn't want to drive home because I was kind of
tired but the moment I started driving it was like KICK
ASS! Of course I get stuck behind the guy that goes 5 mph
under the speed limit and sslows to almost a complete stop
a whole 8748234 blocks away from the actual stop light. I
exagerate but it was messed up. The light ahead of us turns
red and before this person it past the intersection of the
light we were driving through at the time she slows so that
I have to break IN the intersection before that light and
there was still a whole maybe 20 car legths distance there.
I mean considerable distance. I don't really know what I am
talking about but yeah.
So Amanda is gone. I hope she is going to do okay. She
said she would write me. I hope so. I'll miss her crazy ass
too much if she doesn't. Kelly took me to the mall today to
shop for Mike's birthday present. Man I wish I could say
how horrible it is that these stores didn't have what I
wanted to get him but I don't want him to randomly check
this (though I don't think does) and get any ideas (I have
more stores to go to looking for the same shit). WHAT AM I
GOING TO DO?!?!?!?! This is seriously not cool because I am
on like my last ideas here and if this store doesn't have
anything then I am screwed. Mike isn't real great at giving
ideas either. Maybe I should just run and change my
identity so he can't find me. The people who run from
people seeking birthday presents. I wonder if there is such
an organization..... WOW I must be going crazy. I have
super intelligence cop fighter crap on my mind now I guess.
So yeah what do I want to talk about. I need to, talk
myself to sleep tonight.
My dad. Here is a great discussion. Well I think for
the time being I am accepting him for exactally what he is.
He wasn't home when I woke up at noon. Yeah I sleep a lot.
Sleep is my friend. I have a feeling the parental units are
going to start waking me up this summer though. Untill I
get a job. No one wants me. This makes me cry. Anyway so my
dad doesn't show up at all. I leave for the mall around
2:00 or something. My dad is home when I get home. He is
drinking with the neighbors. Those puppies are so awesome.
My dad wants one real bad but my mom doesn't want one.
Personally I have no preference anymore. I think I just
like the puppy aspect of them and not the actual BLACK LAB
BIG HUGE DOG thing about them. Well he has about 6 or 7
beers with them, comes inside and says dinner will be ready
in an hour or so. Half an hour later mike calls. I told him
I'd call him after dinner and we could do something. This
was at about 6:45. My dad burnt dinner. As usual when he is
kind of missing mysteriously and then appears just to go to
the neighbors house. The neighbors ask him to go fishing
with them so he takes burnt dinner off the stove (I wonder
how bad it would have been had they not come over at that
moment) and we eat. I call Mike back at 8:30. My dad tries
to drag me on to the boat with him. I am all like there is
nothing on the boat for me, so I didn't feel like going. He
was like okay and left. Me and Mike decided that a movie
was our best bet because it was 8:45 by the time we hung up
and my mom was really tired. I can't spend another night at
his house or his dad will be kind of angry with me. His dad
told me I better drive slow. I asked him how he expected me
to be all evil and dangerous in a ford tarus. I thought
about it and you can speed in any car and took back my
words but I still meant what I said. It isn't like I expect
to race in a fucking tarus. LOL. Anyway so yeah you know
how my night went from there already.
I am listening to Metallica. I don't know it was
playing in the car on the way home. It was actually kind of
fun to drive to. I have this urge to paint stuff. I have
all week. I painted a shitty hand with a green background
and then I added colored pencil over it. It looks like more
comic book super heroish except it sucks ass. I just wanted
to see what it would look like. I am tempted to draw a car
now and paint it. Then take some markers to it for detail
and lines. Maybe some glitter if I ever get any. I was
going to draw up something for Mike. I had this awesome
idea but I couldn't do it because I lost the stuff I needed
for it. Oh well I can still do it. It just wont count for
the whole birthday thing anymore. Man I fuck up everything.
I am not worried about this yet. I am leaving that for
tomorrow when I get to the store and can't find anything.
HAH I wonder what my next entry will look like if I can't
find anything. #@%*#@$** the @#$!@ store!!!! @#%@*%(!%* %*!%
( %&@(% %&@$%(@#%@!!!! Yeah that is what my thoughts will
look like. Anyway I am going to go try and figure something
out. I hope my dad ignores the fact that I am awake when he
comes home. I don't want to watch him fall through my door
again (the other night he could barley talk straight and I
think he tried to lean on my door because he started
falling forwards and like caught himself.. twas kinda
funny). Good-night all you strange people!
-- Allie




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