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Mundane Confessions Of A Mundane Girl
2003-06-05 19:52:07 (UTC)

scared shitless

kay

last night at like... 2am i was talkin to my cousin Evan on
the phone (suicidal) and he said something very close to
this : "i cant take this shit anymore. i try and i try but
nothings coming... i give up lauren. i love you so much."
and then he hung up.

scariest shit ever

when i got home, i called my grama and she said that she
had no idea where he was or when he left. hes disapeared.

i shake just thinking about it

god

pray for him

on a totaly unrelated topic... mark is two faced. because
when its just me and him, hes really nice... but now that
everyone else hangs out with him, its like he doesnt care
about me anymore. i feel not needed. hes changed alot
lately. i can almost guarantee that he doenst like me,
but its okay becase i dont like him all that much anymore
either

i mean, hes still my friend and shit... but i know that
we'll never go out. i guess i just got sick of waiting
for "the right time" and now everythings changing

grad's coming up... i dont know how i feel about that

i mean i CANNOT wait to get out of this school and away
from these people (most of them, theres a few i'll miss)
but im scared shitless about high school

god


~fults




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