Penny Lane

who says you need a life?
2003-06-05 01:40:22 (UTC)

I feel sorrow

I still feel so bad. I know that I shouldn't but
I do. I mean the whole Dan thing is making me hurt inside.
I can't even hide it. I have to cry. I feel so guilty. I
want to know what I did if anything. I want to know whats
going on but you can't if someone won't let you in. I feel
so resopinable for it. I don't know why. I have been crying
for almost 4 hours off and on. I feel so much pain. I can't
get ride of it. I wish I could. I wish I could just have no
soul or consencs. WHy must I be so sentive? WHy must I feel
at all? Why must I be caring and not wanting it to end??
WHY? WHy did I have to talk to him in woodshop? I wish that
I could have been in art with Lindsey. Shes gone to. WHy
must I lose so many friends. IN the last week I have lost
2. Both of thme were my really good friends. I wish that I
could just know. Know why I'm here. What my purpose is. I
think I have none. I wish that I was still in Illions were
thsi would have never of spark. Or maybe back in with
Jorge. That way I would have meet him and ALex. That way I
would feel no pain for what is going on now. I have this
week and next to live the pain. I know that in summer it
will hurt but not as bad because I will be gone for good.
ANother school more people. Have to restart my life again.




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