CelticPagan

Passage
2003-06-01 20:24:22 (UTC)

Just some thoughts

Couple of odd things going on for me lately. One is my
unusual luck on the scratch tickets I致e been buying. It
seems my luck is turning a bit more sunward, but only a
bit. I keep winning amounts under $10 and a few $20痴. Of
course I知 also playing the powerball and buying a ticket
for it each time I win anything, so hopefully the luck will
extend to the powerball as well. I noticed on 2 of my
tickets for this next drawing, I致e got the same number
highlighted for my powerball number, and 2 of the same
other numbers. I値l have to go look and see what that
would win, probably like $30 or so if I recall correctly.
As is usual for me, I致e been expanding on dreaming about
winning the lottery. I致e been keeping it fairly down to
earth, even giving more than a little thought to what it
would be like to win one of the smaller amounts and how I壇
deal with it as well. Any amount that helps make me self
sufficient and free of debt is one I壇 give daily grace
for. Then again, I give grace for my little free ticket
winners too.
Here recently I致e even been going so far as to bounce
around on the internet looking at what real estate in
various places would cost me. While most of my dreams
center on moving to Arizona or California, I致e been
checking southern Missouri and the mountains of Colorado
too. I think the factors that are seen in each place is
being remote and private, part of a smaller community or
town, and being big enough for me to expand my interests if
and when needed. While I often give thought to some of the
big plans I壇 put into effect, just the other day I also
gave a lot of thought to the smaller stuff. Daily
activities that make up the grind. One was wanting to buy
a Kayak to paddle around a lake a few mornings each week,
part of my exercise routine I壇 like to get into. I know
I知 going to have to make more than a few serious health
changes. Another small thing, is wanting a garden and
various growing things. Mainly I知 looking at the basic
vegetable and herb garden, then also having some berry
bushes and possibly a fruit tree or two. Those would
likely be cherries and peaches since I don稚 care all that
much for apples. Having this garden however does require
at least a small amount of work a week, tending and
weeding, and of course because of my tendency to do so, the
recording and tracking of growth for it.
So from there? Unless I致e got the big charity
organization up and running, I壇 probably be working in
playing around with the photography and flying. I壇 like
to have a balance of models I pay for the work of, and
customers paying me for their photos, preferably to a point
of balance. It痴 not something I知 overly obsessed with
making money from. It痴 the experimenting, learning,
testing and trying of new things that interest me. I壇
like to make a name for myself with the quality and style
of my work, not the cost or monetary label to it.
That would be a good majority of the day for 3-4 days a
week. The other days would be dedicated to study and
research into whatever topics come to mind for me. I have
no doubt that will be something pulling at me on a regular
basis. Study has always been a big part of my life,
regardless of the subject or topic.
On a less than positive note, though I知 glad it came to
mind as I really don稚 want to overlook anything especially
like this, there is a possible downside to winning the
lottery. I have some debt problems, not the least of which
is federal and state taxes. It痴 only a single years tax
when I was living on the street but it痴 still a problem.
It would cause the payment of my check to be held until
payment of taxes were made. So my question is this. If I
can稚 afford to pay the taxes, and they won稚 let the check
into my name until they are paid, how would they get paid?
I hate to think of going to family and borrowing a couple
hundred dollars to get a couple million but that痴 what it
would come down to! I don稚 know if they壇 allow me to
just deduct their payment for the taxes from the check
given me, in addition to the normal taxes withheld that
is. We were discussing the lottery at work the other day
and I heard so many people complaining about how much money
is taken in taxes from the win. Am I that unusual for not
worrying about it? It really doesn稚 bother me, I just
figure it into the amount and consider the amount I致e won
after those figures, not before. I don稚 know, maybe I知
just odd that way.
It takes 15 working days to be validated (the powerball
tickets) so should I keep working at least for the first
week or two, then quit, or wait the entire 3 weeks? There
is that slim chance that it will be found to be a defective
ticket and the only thing you get is $1 for replacement of
it. That would totally suck but not surprise me with how
the Fates dabble in my life. I could work the first week
or so, then take a leave of absence for person reasons,
that way I壇 still have a job if need be, but the door
would be open for leaving also. That sounds like a much
better plan. I do know I壇 keep it totally silent about
winning.
I value my privacy almost obsessively. I don稚 need
skeletons knocking to get out of the closet or people
snooping into my past trying to dig them up to get a hook
into me either. How many do I have? I壇 say at least 2
that I知 very aware of, and another 3 that might be out
there without my direct knowledge. The 2 I know of, can稚
be put to rest, not while I still live and breathe. The
others relate to past relationships and activities I was
involved in. I don稚 see myself running or hiding from
them, or doing anything to bury them further. Things are
fine as they are, I壇 like to keep them that way.
On to other topics. I致e been noticing an unusual amount
of feathers lately. Last time this started happening to
me, I collected them and used them for a ritual in which a
message needed to get to someone I couldn稚 contact
otherwise. I知 not just talking about feathers in
general. These are outstanding ones, perfect in form and
color, no damage to them at all. A few have been the cool
gray of pigeons, one of a Blue Jay and another smaller one
from a Cardinal. I haven稚 picked them up though. I can稚
really say why not, I just haven稚 bothered to. Am I going
to need them at some point in the near future? Will I be
able to find ones I need at the last minute if I do need
them? I guess I figure that if it痴 that important for the
Spirit to guide me to noticing, it would be a stronger pull
to collect them if they were that important. I do tend to
trust in the Fates a bit more strongly than most people
consider safe or healthy, but they致e never done me wrong
yet.
Time to find something for dinner. Maybe a salad, but
that痴 what I had for lunch so maybe not.




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