Infiniterocker

hello kitty cat
2003-05-31 06:33:29 (UTC)

"does anybody feel this way? does anybody feel like I do..."

so I'm listening to dredg.

I think I'm paranoid.

I'm lonely.

I want to be able to count on people.

I thought about it today. The only family I have..is my
little brother Ian. That is the only blood I love, that
loves me back.

I have Kiley.and Jamie. I know I do. I know they would
never leave me..I know they care about me and no matter
what they will be there for me. But they are so far away.

I don't understand why I can't have a family. I don't
understand.

It's not fair. I don't have parents to call up...I don't
have a significant other..I want someone who loves me the
same way I love them..and is there for me no matter what....

I'm tired. I feel like I've worked my whole life for
absolutely nothing.

The smallest things make my eyes tear up nowadays.

Some of the things that make my eyes tear up---I have NO
CLUE..why they have that effect on me.

You're never going to find someone to have forever if you
don't believe you could be with someone forever, or even
for a lifetime.

If you look for something to suit you just for now, that's
what you'll find.

That is how you create your own reality. It's all in what
you believe.