Amnesia

dude
2003-05-31 03:35:07 (UTC)

Update on the dude...

He didn't show. Ofcourse that was expected. Nothing was for
sure today. I had fun today though. I was hanging with
Yesenia and her sister. I met her whole family and that was
nice. I'm hoping to win their trust as I have with Teresa's
family so that we could go cruising and that she could come
over to my house or I could drive us somewhere. Her parents
are overprotective of her as well, but she's fun as hell.
So it would be worth it in the long run. Not to mention the
sunny hook up.

I'll come over again some time. She told a few people that
are cool why I'm really coming over. What's the main reason
of it all. Like her sister. The actual explanation is long,
but it just sounds better.

See, it's not like I'm that shallow that I just wanna jump
him. Hell no. Yes I dig his look. And yes, I've admired him
from a far most of this school year. I didn't care until
somebody went on and told me about his personality. That's
when the line between just admiring from afar and actually
thinking about meeting him changed. Then alot of people
know who he is. Who wouldn't. He stands out. So Yesenia
just so happens to be my hook up. But it's not gonna be
those ghetto hook ups that I've been seeing lately among
her and Erica. It's more of, a bunch of friends hanging out
so that I can see how he is and observe if I wanna proceed
in getting to know him and actually developing something
for him. He's hot.

If it takes time, I don't care. 9 school days left. I can
keep in touch with Yesenia. It's not like I'm leaving town
just yet. This might work if he's cool. Maybe we'll meet
someday. I hope he's not sophomoric. People say that women
are ahead of men mentally 2years. He's younger then me.
Atleast I think so. He is a junior and I'm a senior. So
then it would be 3 years. Some guys are smarter then they
seem. Or smarter then what they want others to see them as.
Others are just smart. But who cares about that. As long as
he's not immature and all about sex. I can't stand that.

I forget to mention, I don't remember exactly what it was,
but I was having a conversation with myself in my head.
Pretending I was actually talking to somebody else about
sex. Instead of just acting immature about it, it made me
start thinking. What is the point of putting it off? I
still plan on not doing it anytime soon, but when I'm ready
and out of the house, I'll get on the pill, or the patch,
and once I develop a good, steady relationship with
someone, it might just happen. Just taking steps and being
prepared. That's all. This experiance might sound weird,
but it gave me a different perspective on things that kinda
opened my eyes, made me think, and finally made me face the
issue which I've been avoiding without feeling uneasy.

That's what happens when you have too much time. Well
whatever. That guys hot and... yeah. That's it for today.
Tune in next time. Same bat time, same bat channal.

-Amnesia




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