hollyg54

Holly's Mind
2003-05-29 09:08:51 (UTC)

Where I go I just don't know........

Reality for me sucks if I could I would sleep all day and
night so that i could live in my dream world away from
here. The sad thing is my dream world isn't perfect it sucks there
too. however it is way more interesting than what
i have now. I don't even know what i am saying at this
moment i tend to blab on and on about things without
knowing what i am saying half the time. God!! is this
it???!!! is this my life??? am i always going to be sick??
I hate not knowing what i have, i hate the fact that the
tests that i took at the damn hospital didn't have answers
for me. i hate the fact that i have no one to cry to
except for this damn journal. i feel so sorry for all
those who read this bloody thing they are probably
confuesed as hell, i know i am.
you know what is pissing me off the most, the fact that i
am seeing some stupid guy right know who is jealous at the
fact that i use to have a crush on one of my guy friends. this
guy eric, and i have been dating for awhile and he
called me on tuesday to asked what i did on monday and he
was upset at the fact that i went to magic mountain with
some friends especialy since one of the guys that went was
the friend that i use to have a crush on.he said alll this
crap about me still having feeling for this guy and what not.
all i had to say to that was... yes i do still care for him,
but i would rather have someone that wants me in return. right now
however i really
don't want erk anymore.
Well i need to go i am not going to read this damn thing
over and correct errors because i don't really give a damn.
i know i will regret that too because later all read this
and say goddamit why didn't i correct it. well later peeps
i shall see you next time i get the urge to be write in
this thing. forever insane,
holly
peace,marley,and a brown paper bag




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