I hate girls

my sad beginning
2003-05-27 10:28:34 (UTC)

sigh

so I'm at my dads house right now. getting ready to go to
school. I havent eaten anything in a couple days and yet
I'm still not hungry. I feel like I'm going to puke. I saw
pictures of Kellie and Crystal together at Prom. They look
Happy. Kellie wasnt happy with me. I think I'm going to
talk to my counsler today. I need help. All I want to do is
hurt myself. I cant stop thinking about that knife in my
pocket. I just cant. I lost the only good thing in my life
because I was an ass. I was happy with Kellie yet I still
lied to her and why? I dont know I just did it and now I'm
paying for it. she was my world and now my world is gone.
there is no more reason for living. She says it'll be
okay.That's easy for her to say. She's with Crystal right
now and where am i? alone at my dads house. I cant even
talk to her because she'll get mad. And I dont want to make
her mad anymore. Crystal seems to make her happy and I
guess I need to leave that alone. If she's heppy thats
good. I want her to be happy. I'm not happy. I'm sad. I
want to die. I have to go bye




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