ChickRockeR

My Crazy Life
2003-05-21 02:09:44 (UTC)

Patrick is the best

hey, i havent written in a while. so much shit has been
going on lately, good and bad, its insane. a few weeks i
attempted suicide. i overdosed. then i went to the
hospital. now i see a shrink and a therapist and i am on
medication and i have Major Depressive Disorder. im going
out with Pat. the love of my life. i love him more than
anything i ever have before. i want to spend forever with
him. hes the greatest person and i love him to death. he
even asked me to move in with him when hes older and his
dad buys him either a house or an apartment. i told him i
would, becuase i could spend forever with him, and i would
want to spend forever with him. lately, i have also been
gettin into cigarettes, a bad habit im sure. but i cant
help it, i just want them now. i had one today. it was
nice. pat smokes occasionally, but now he smokes more
often. i dont want him to smoke too much though. god i love
him so much. just thinking about him and how much he means
to me... its amazing. i know that i used to love adam, and
hes still a good friend, but the feelings i have for Pat
are so much more stronger than they ever were for adam. i
never want to be away from Pat. god i love him. im gunna go
now, ill write later.
xoxo hol




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