AgeNt RaYne

mY tyPe of pOisOn
2003-05-18 03:57:49 (UTC)

Send the pain below.....

err, okay nvm, my mom is being a poop head. i can't go
bowling. god i wish i was 18...i would move out. forever
away from cerritos. away from the pain and the memories.
AHHHHHHH! i could scream.i wanna go bowling. i wanna go out.
i wanna show sean i can have fun w/out him. if he can so can
i!!!! its no fair. and none of my friends are online.
CAUSE EVERYONE HAS A LIFE BUT ME!!!! maybe if i was 18 sean
wouldnt get mad that i have to be home early. i'm only
fifteen for christs sake!!!!!!!! arG. i wanna get drunk. i
wanna get high. i wanna smoke. i wanna get heart disease and
die.2 hours and ten minutes till sean gets out of that
stupid concert. and now brandons mad at me cuz i cant go
bowling so he cant go. Everyone's mad at me. o why?
see.........dammit.....shit fuck......i wanna go to stupid
concert and ruin everyones plans. i wanna go to chain
reaction and see my ex jonathan and laugh at him for what he
lost. i wanna go and see jose and apologize for being such a
bitch at disneyland in december. i wanna see sean. i wanna
go to the block and see trevor. i wanna go back to sadies
and dance wth adrian only to realize what a shitty dancer he
is. i wanna go back to valentines day when i got a rose from
chip. i wanna go back to summer of 8th grade and love steven
again. i want love. i want to feel loved. not disregarded
and left behind like i feel now. i want to cuddle. i want to
kiss. i want to feel. i hate being alone. i was alone all my
life. i hate it. everyone leaves me, even my parents.


OF ALL THE SHOOTING STARS I KNEW, I NEVER FELL FOR ANYONE
BUT YOU...




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