tarletondiva

Trials and Tribulations
2003-05-16 19:09:46 (UTC)

Middle of May

Well, it's May 16. We have 4 weeks of school left, and 5
and a half weeks till Dylan's born. Time is starting to
pass slowly. I expected this to happen as the big day got
closer. Days go by a lot slower, that's for sure.

Today some of my students threw me a surprise baby shower.
The whole school was there. They had cupcakes, punch, and
a few gifts. It was really sweet. I know they worked hard
on it. I got a little teary eyed when I was reading their
cards and stuff. I really am going to miss these kids when
I go. It's okay though. I'll bond with my new students
too. Hopefully I'll be able to find a job. I haven't
heard from any of the places yet. I'm starting to get
nervous, even though I know that it's still a bit early for
everything. If it gets to the end of June and I still
haven't heard anything, I'll start freaking out. I just
don't want to be left with nothing. I realize now that I
took a big chance leaving here. I just hope it doesn't
bite me in the ass. If nothing else, I can get a job doing
something else in Waco or something. I like teaching
though. I need to get my certification, without a doubt.

My real baby shower is next weekend. Mom invited like 60
people. Hopefully a lot of them come, but not too
many. :) That's a lot of thank you cards! :)

Allen is doing fine. He's getting excited the closer it
gets. He sees me getting a rounder belly and he just
smiles. He's so good to me. I don't know what my life
would be like without him. I hope I never have to find
out. Our anniversary is less than a month away. I'm going
to buy tickets to see George Lopez in Grand Prarie in
July. That's his favorite comedian. Hopefully he likes
it. It's hard for me to keep surprises from him though :)

We are going to go to Ft Worth tomorrow to go shopping for
the day. I need to get a bookshelf for Dylan's room. You
should see it---it's so cute. I think we did a really good
job with it, if I do say so myself :)

Mr. Cearley started letting me come in at 9 and leave at
2:30. It helps, but I still get so tired by about
lunchtime. Now, I'm sitting at my desk, just waiting for
the bell to ring so I can go home. I've even thought about
leaving school a few weeks early, but they don't pay you
for it, and I need the money. So, I'll be here every day
till he's born, even if it kills me :)

Justin is doing okay I guess. He and Mitza are still
together. I hope he's happy. I worry sometimes that he's
putting on a show. He used to do that all the time, but
when I could see his face I knew he was not being honest.
Now, I never see him, so I can't be so sure. He's supposed
to come visit me on May 31. Hope he really does.

Becca and I had a falling out, but we seem to be slowly
getting over it. She told me yesterday that she's
pregnant. I hope it works out for her. They got that
house, so it looks like she is going to stick it out with
Brett. She never did tell him about Jake.

Mom is fine, and so is Meggan and Steven. Steven's ready
to graduate, and I am ready for him to do so. He's so
negative anymore. I never see him just being genuine. I
hope that changes. He seems so bitter. Meggan's going to
summer school in Denton. She's doing well...flighty as
ever, but that's just her.

Don't really know how Dad is. He calls and stuff, but he's
not very candid. I guess I shouldn't expect him to be. He
has another life somewhere else. He won't be here for
Dylan's birth--he's coming for graduation and leaving 2
days later. Kind of shitty I think, but whatever.

All in all, life is good. It's as good as it's ever been,
which is saying a lot. I hope things continue to go this
well. I'll try and write again sometime before the end of
the school year, which is a month away, so I've got plenty
of time!! :)




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