~*ErIcA~dAwN*~

~*FlOaTiNg*~
2003-05-16 13:28:32 (UTC)

~*BeSt~YeArS?*~

I was thinking the other day of how these are supposed to
be the best years of your life...your teen years...well if
these are the best years of my life I'm not so sure I wanna
live to be very old!...Why is everything so damn
unfair?...I'm not a terrible person, and I sure as hell
know that I didn't do anything to deserve half of the stuff
that happens to me!...But I guess all you can do is sit
around and complain about it considering the base of all of
my problems is either something I have no control over or
it's something that I can't motivate myself to do...I wish
I had been born one of those perfect people you see...The
ones that never do anything wrong, have wonderful parents,
do their school work, and are good at every single thing
they do without even trying!...But I wasn't born like
that...anything I do I have to work at...and I don't think
it's fair...which brings me to my next question...What is
the point of life?...seriously...if you think about
it...there is none...I mean we all get thrown out here with
a blindfold on and are supposed to figure everything
out...well by the time I die I probably won't know any more
about life than the day I was born...this makes me so
depressed...I wish that something would make me happy so I
could stop thinking like this...I think I have some mild
symptoms of depression...but maybe it's just me..."I'll get
over it"...like I always do!...I feel like I'm the only one
in the world who hates waking up in the morning because
they have nothin good to face...Nothing is fun
anymore...all this stupid pressure on school and sports and
4-H...I can't handle it anymore...there is alwasy someone
backing everything though...one person says here...focus on
this and the other says here...focus on this...and so on
and so on utnil I have so many things to do that I don't
evern have time to think about what I WANT to do!...but oh
well...I think I've had just about enough complaining for
one day...I need to go find someone to cheer me up...*ByE*




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