Diary of Stuff (Volume I)
2003-05-15 09:18:59 (UTC)

2b || !2b ?

well, i don't know what the deal is, but i feel that there
is some resentment going on about me going back to school,
and that i picked math, of all things, to major in...
what's the deal? math is some pretty heady stuff, and only
a gifted few really know what it's all about, and so to be
judged by the idiot-many on this choice seems ridiculously
retarded..... it's like a woman, who is cheating on her
husband (i base this on an actual person that i know), goes
to church and sings how great it is to be a
christian......nuh-uh, God said, No Adultery.....that was
one of his (His) commandments.....that makes her a hypocrite

i guess the heart of the problem lies in the fact that
these people don't see the utter and perfect beauty that
lies hidden in math, that they CAN'T see it, that they can
only see the imperfections and ugliness of the world around
them, and to them, to live just a hair-breadths above it,
with enough money, enough pride, enough selfishness, enough
lies, are all that they would have to do to rise above it.

Christian perfection pushes my soul to that total and
ultimate point of infinite beauty, to God, the Maker....

Math, and all its problems, pushes my Mind to that same

.....and sit-ups and push-ups and the two mile run would
push my body there too, but i haven't started that yet,

p.s. oh yeah, i forgot, here's another random note from some other
Timestamp: 2002-05-16 12:14:52 GMT

you're completely mental. And i like it
you write well