ultimateEMOgurl

So much for my happy ending...
2003-05-15 04:43:44 (UTC)

Church....

The past 2 weeks at church we have been talking about
stress and problems. NOw if you keep up with my diary you
know this isnt a really good time for me to be talking
about all that. Well actually maybe God is speaking to me,
and telling me that he is here for me, and that i need to
come to him more. But yes...tonight at small group we
charted our highs and lows in life, and then shared 2 high
and low points. I talked about justin leaving and changing
churches, and people, and going to camp...and my major high
point was just realizing how much God has gotten me through
my problems...and how much strength He has given me. And
even though through all my problems that i have He has
always been there for me, and it has really broughten me
closer to Him. After i shared everyone was silent and then
Kathy was like aww thats so emotional and then everyones
like ya i feel like crying *sniff* *sniff* Hah, yes i have
a very crazy life. Liz and Sarah were looking at my chart
and they are like geez shannon your life is like nothing
but lows! The only highs i had on my chart were Church
related. BUt i didnt add like people that gave me highs and
things like that. BUt ya...it was interesting to just see
when my life started going downhill, but also to see where
my highest points are. Ive been feeling this calling to
rededicate my life, and tonight made me realize how much i
need to do this. I really dont know how i would have made
it through this time without God in my life. Ive been
through problems and stresses without God and i really dont
know how i made it through, and i dont understand why
people just continue to go through all this pain even
though God is there willing to help you through it all. And
you people who dont believe He helps, i am living proof
that he does. Just ask me and i will be more than happy
just tell you how He has worked in my life. So yea...that
was my night. I know God will continue working in my life,
and i cant wait to see what else he has in store for me.




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