Ohmmy

Hello...I lied...AGAIN

Looking back on the past few years, I ask myself...was this
worth it? Was it worth the pain? The effort? The sacrifice?
Yeah...it was SO worth it. Knowing that someone so great
could care about me was worth it all. I wonder sometimes,
did you know how much I cared? Hell, do you know how much I
care? I promised myself I wouldn't let it happen again...I
wouldn't let myself get comfortable...because when that
happens, you start to see the REAL me...the one you fell in
love with...the one who left because I was so afraid of
losing you. I'm afraid that you'll get sick of me, that's
why I don't live closer to you now. I'm afraid you'll
realize I'm messed up and you'll never be able to fix me.
I'm afraid you'll realize I lied when I said "oh yeah, I'm
over you." I try not to let the gaze linger on, I try not
to let my thoughts slip out, I try not to cry when I have
to leave you again. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT I TRY TO DO,
THE POINT IS I TRY.
You say your song is Head Over Feet...but that's how I
feel. You treat me like I'm a princess...I'm not used to
liking that.
I'm going to bed...g'nite
Peace Love And Bullet Proof Marshmallows
Emily, The Flying Frog