Sour Jack Kid

All Mysteries Exposed
2003-05-14 02:55:51 (UTC)

I'm bad

I fell bad. Kinda sick to my stomach. Lies, it's an aching
to my heart. I really like Jesse, too much. Thank goodness
he doesn't know about this diary, I would be sad because he
would know how much I like him and I'm not ready for that
just yet. It was funny, today I had this master plan for
him to talk to me. Ha, like he wasn't going to anyway, I
was just paranoid. I talk to him every day. So my master
plan was for him to come and tell me that Nicole was
waiting for me after his class got over. Then I'd leave my
class half an hour early and go eat lunch with the girls.
So I told Nicole my master plan and she agreed to ask him
to get me for her. I'm so diabolical, hee hee. I'm still in
high school so I'm allowed to act like this. So Anyway,
Jesse can up the stairs and I acted like I was really into
my painting, but I was really watching him walk up to me
from the corner of my eye. I slowly looked up and he was
smiling and said "Hey, someone wants you." I just about
melted, mmmmmm I love his voice. My responce was some what
clever, I said "Really? Wow, that never happens to me" Then
the hair flip! Perfect move on my aprt. Then he said "Yeah
right( in reference to the fact that I;m never wanted)".
The "yeah right" makes me want to think that he still
thinks I'm beautiful and it's hard to believe that I'm
"never wanted". Ego boost right there. We both smiled at
each other and of course I did the giggle. I like to think
it made him think twice about me, kinda like a double take.
I like to think my giggles are affective. Goodness, I like
him so much. I should stop, I'm just setting myself up for
failure and looking to closely to the situation and his
words. Damn me.
=RAA= Maggie




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