J-Bunny

My Life (yawn)
2003-05-13 23:34:57 (UTC)

Out of Control

What the hell is going on with me?
I forgot my damn coffee this morning, I never do that.
My life just seems to be revolving around my job and I
think I'm going to have some mental relapse or
something. On Monday I thought I was having a heart
attack from all the stress.
I hate having to be the point person that everyone is
relying on for answers.
What the hell is going on with me?
I forgot my damn coffee this morning, I never do that.
My life just seems to be revolving around my job and I think
I'm going to have some mental relapse or something. On Monday I
thought I was having a heart attack from all the stress.
I hate having to be the point person that everyone is relying
on for answers.
Today I actually took a lunch and came back to 25 friggin
emails. Do people think I actually sit around and wait for
problems to happen and always be there?

I'm so upset about E saying she heard they're thinking of
taking my OT/travel time away. I really don't think they can do
this, legally. Make me travel on my own time, weekends? How can
someone thats been there forever suddenly go from non exempt to
exempt? I've been all over the labor board bureau and my job
description certainly doesn't qualify me for exempt status, or
whichever I'm always confusing the two.

I'm so overwhelmed but yet am the one putting the pressure on
myself. I want to be pleasant instead of always stressed and
frantic. What is wrong with me?

I'm so resentful towards most everyone in my group. Granted we
certainly don't all do the same thing but its absolutely
maddening to hear A giggling on the phone for hours on personal
calls.

I actually have a lot more respect for the new girl. She's
impressed me with a couple of jobs I've thrown her way and
she's actually aware of what a deadline is. Unlike the other
idiots I have to constantly remind. I swear I spend most of my
time relying on other shitheads to get their job done so my job
is done. I'm the one the people will bitch too if it isn't.

ARGH! I really need to learn how to relax. Actually I think I'm
beyond that I think I may need to go on something but I hate
the thought of becoming dependent on something that's going to
alter my mood. Its scary enough.
I'm thinking money would alter it considerably. I can't believe
S is wondering what the hell is wrong with me when none has had
a raise in 3 years. Jesus, what's the matter with them? And me
for that matter?

I'm in the wrong field. I want to re-do from high school on.
Is that too much to ask




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