thea

the semi-secret life of thea
2003-05-13 21:06:20 (UTC)

damn english class

So today in english, what did we talk about? Of course,
my teacher went way off the topic and we ended up having a
half hour discussion on anorexia. I just sat not moving a
muscle, too scared to listen and too scared not to. Too
scared someone would look over at me and realize that i was
swaying unintentionally and my eyes darting around
nervously. Mrs.Read talked about it for what seemed like a
lifetime. God, how am i going to handle health class next
year when we do this unit? I'm not. And the sick, sad thing
is that while Mrs.Read was talking about how the girl got
down to certain weights and how they had to force feed her
and everything, i found it all very appealing. I didn't
recoil with fear and disgust like everyone else, i got all
excited and yearned to be like her. God damn. What a fuck
up. What a fuck up! *shakes head*




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