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Life (or something like it)
2003-05-08 18:05:46 (UTC)

chemistry

Well i will probably have to go to summer school for
chemistry. i am the first perso in my family to do it, what
an accomplishment! I was looking on the bright side of
this, if i go to summer school, i don't go away for 5 and
half weeks for camp. why i am bringing this up is b/c today
in english, my teacher was relating life to the great
gatsby and how gatsby wanted everything to be the same
between him and daisy. and then my teacher said it " you
can't, say, go away to camp kahdalea for 5 and a half weeks
and come back and think that everythign is going to be the
same between you and your boyfriend." she read my mind. it
hit me. i don't want things to change between me and jeff.
i am not a good handler of those kind of things. when i am
at camp, i am going to be thinking what he is doing and who
he is going out with, and what is going to happen when i
get back. but if i go to summer school i can't go to camp.
jeff has become my best friend and who will i talk to when
i am away. i will break down. there is a quote that
says "immature love says i love you b/c i need you and
mature love says i need you b/c i love you." i didn't love
jeff b/c i needed him. i didn't need him until i fell in
love with him. i am not sure what to think and really i
hate talking about this with him. i want to live in the
present but not the future, but doesn't the present make
the future?




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