Sarah

I Cry Tears Of Blood
2003-05-06 23:34:03 (UTC)

Things

Alecia and I are friends again, thanks to Dennis! *I owe
you!* It's not like it used to be, but it's better than
hating her.

I haven't talked to Anthony yet. I'm not ready to apologize
to him. I'm still mad. He had no right to do that to me. I won't get
over that for a long while yet.

Other than that, I guess it's pretty good. Nothing really
happening.

Andy gave me a ring yesterday. I told him to give it to someone
special, someone that would go out with him, but he still gave it to
me. Even though I don't ever want to go back out with him. Even
though I don't like him that way. *Sigh* Why won't he give up?
Doesn't he ever learn? I guess it's the same way with me and Seth.
Don't I ever give up? Apparently not if I'm still writing him
letters saying I'll be here when he decides to take me
back, no matter how long it takes.

Maybe being single is better than being taken, even if I'm
taken by the one I love. I don't know. I'm not ready for a
relationship. Sometimes I don't think I ever will be. I'm mature
enough, I just don't know how to deal with it. I'm scared to find
stability, and then have it ripped out from underneath me. What would
I be left with then?




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