TearStainedHeart

TearStainedHeart
2003-05-05 20:24:09 (UTC)

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AhHhHhHh!! Fucking hell my head is all over the place
nevermind my heart!!! I'm dieing. Lol ok so I'm not. Erm.
Yeah anyway diary diary diary (don't that sound like die
die die die die die!!?!!). Anyway.

I last updated Wednesday. That was quite a while ago cuz
now it's Monday. Aren't I clever lol. Erm no!

T. 1st May: I can't exactly remember. Oh yeah I can a bit
lol. I dunno what happened at lunch time or owt though. In
Design I finished off all my pottery work, my !CaT!
kennel, that came out pretty shite actually cuz I couldn't
be arsed to paint it. And my Money Box. That came out
amazingly well lol, it's a box, with a fairy on the front
with grass, then on the sides it has music notes, then on
the back it has 'Willow' painted on, and the lid has
mushrooms on it. It looks awesome. It's mostly magenta,
it's purple inside, then the mushrooms are red with white
spots and brown stumps. The fairy is pink the grass is
green and the music notes are lilac, and Willow is painted
on in purple. They were all in pastelly kind-of colours.
It looked really good and everybody kept saying so lol.
Anyways yeah. After school, we were a bit late out, it was
me, Nic, Leah and Jess cuz we'd gone to get our design
stuff. I was holding my kennel 'n' Leah was holding my
Money Box. We were going out of the far gate, near the
Design/Science appartment. And I nearly died lol. John
Stokes was there and he pointed at me laughed and said it
looks better than ginger. Lol. My hair. He was kinda weird
then. He looked a bit of a mess actually. I dunno. It's
just so weird lol. He's got 2 girlfriends now. He's still
got Caz though he don't really deserve her, I mean she
could have someone closer and there's John fucking her
around. She has no idea what he's been doing!!! I mean
FFS! So now he's got this new girlfriend. Close to home of
course. It just pisses me off how he can cheat on Caz like
that. Like anyone could be doing it, even my boyfriend lol.

F. 2nd May: I don't particularly remember. Kind of crap
day I think. I was just bored and shite. Wanted to go home
needed the weekend was really tired etc. lol.

S. 3rd May: Agh. Nothing happened really. I seriously
don't remember lol. Erm. Nope nothing lol. I did
revision!!! For the whole day!! Science revision lol. AHHH.

S. 4th May: I learnt the White Stripes - Seven Nation
Army!! On guitar!!! It's amazing lol. I've found another
new music love aswell though lol, Evanescence - Bring Me
To Life. It's so kewl. I didn't do much of anything today.
Can't exactly even remember. God it was yesterday and I
can't fucking remember. That is sad lol bad memory or
what?! Oh yeah. I went to Maxine's house last night, her
room looks fucking amazing!! She's got a new bunkbed,
metal like ours but with only a single chair bed
underneath, and then her desk with computer and shite on
next to that. And her walls are all black, her ceiling
lilac, laminate flooring and she's got a neon lamp above
her window!! And there's this amazing painting on her
wall, that Lee West's brother painted straight onto it,
when Max was a lil kid. It's really brilliant, he's so
fucking talented!!

M. 5th May: TODAY!! Wo0t! PML..!! Lol today was so mega
weird lol. Alotta crazy shit happened! Lol, so right, I
woke up really early 'n' got dressed 'n' shit. I'm wearing
my baggy jeans, my pink supergirl hoodie, with my black
bruce lee baggy tshirt over it, 'n' I had my Deftones
hoodie around my waist. I put my hair in pigtails with
plaits, and 2 strips at the front. My makeup was, a tiny
thin line of black eyeliner on the bottom of my eyes, a
dark purple eyeshadow, and pink lining the bottom of my
eyes. WIKID MAKE UP!! Lolz. Anyway, we were going out, as
in my family lol, we were all going to Croft Carboot Sale,
with Lynn, Phil and Maxine. It was pretty kewl lol. Hehe.
We just walked around 'n' shit lol didn't buy anything,
though my Dad's bought this new engagement ring, my Mom
probably wants it though she's already got a load of rings
herself, and my Dad wants to sell it or something. Anyways
yeah that was cool lol, then afterwards we went to Watery
Gate!! That was wicked!! We drove through twice lol then
we stopped for a bit and I walked across the bridge and
threw a load of stones in the water lol. T'was kewl! Then
I came home and went on the computer for a bit, did some
guitar playing, especially THE WHTIE STRIPES!! Lol, erm
and then I went out at 1!!! I met Leah 'n' Nic, 'n' then
we went to Kirkby Road Park to meet up with Mike Ball
(nics bf)!! Lol. So yeah he rode in on his bike and Nic
just totally died. We walked to the holla park. Nic and
Mike didn't talk AT ALL. Lol. Me 'n' Leah were just
talking ALL the time being hyper lol. Loadsa crap. Oh yeah
I forgot to mention something, when we got back from
carboot, me 'n' Max went to the co-op on top town so Max
could buy some Jelly lol, and on the benches there were
these 2 REALLY fit GOTH lads!!! They looked about 17!!
Anyways, we went in the co-op and when we came out, we
started walking back to the car, and I was just at the
phone box, I looked back at the lads, 'n' they were
looking at me already, 'n' the fittest one whistled!! They
were so gorgeous lol. So we got home, to my house anyway.
Then I decided I was gonna go up town again to see the
lads, lol addicted, and Max came with me, but they had
gone :'(. Anyway yeah, after Mike had gone home, Leah went
home aswell, and me 'n' Nic rang Tez 'n' she told us to go
to the old factory near Heathfield Hill, so we did. We had
to climb through a smashed window, I fucking cut my hand
lol. Inside was pretty boring. It was just Jaeven, Steven,
Gail, Ashley, 'n' Tez. They were all taking the piss out
of Gail 'n' getting her shoes 'n' stuff lol. Pretty gay.
Then they decided they wanted to go on the roof, so we got
out the factory, 'n' went round the back, there was a
ladder going up really high onto the little roof thing
bit. So me 'n' Nic went up, J 'n' Tez were up there
aswell. It was really crap. Tez was just totally fucking
ignoring us. She was pissed. I don't even think she had
been drinking though. She was being really bitchy aswell.
Too interested in Jaeven etc. to pay us any attention. Oh
well. Then we all walked up to Heathfield, the field, 'n'
climbed through the fence 'n' sat/stood in the connifer
trees. 'connifers' as it's called lol. Then OMG!! Lol. The
two fit GOTH LADS... walked by us up the jitty next to the
field inbetween the field 'n' heathfield hill!! I was
dieing lol. They were with this other townie-ish lad, 'n'
this really anorexic girl who just looked sick 'n' ugly
lol. So I said to Nic I'm going, so Nic came with me 'n'
we said bye to Tez. We were following the fit goth lads
right from the heathfield hill jitty up until the jitty
near Adele's house!! WIKIDNESS! Lol awww they were so
fit. 'n' that was today. Lol.

And now I'm dieing lol. Ya know Mark? The cute 1 I met who
was with John that time?! Wellll.......... he told me he
loves me!! Ahhhhhh. He's so sweet and really really nice.
And ya know Chris Holt the one that went Shelby, that's
his brother, Mark Holt!!!!! Hehe. He's so cute lol. Ahhhh.
And I think I might love him. Ahhhh. Gawd I'm weird lol.

Ben is in some form of mood with me. We were perfectly
fine. Then all of a sudden he said I don't love him. 'n'
he thinks I don't love him. I've TRIED SO HARD to make him
believe that I love him, but he won't admit it. I dunno
what's happened, someone must have said something to him,
but I seriously don't have any idea why he thinks I don't
love him. I do with all my heart. It's just difficult ya
know.

Anyway I've gotta go, SATs tomorrow and I'm not prepared
AT ALL. And it's 9.22pm for fuck sake!!

Love Hannah xXxXxXx

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