partygurl0613074

Mostly Just Shit
2003-05-03 17:18:32 (UTC)

Same old thing...

Day after day after day. i go through the same old thing.
mikey's ignoring me and he thinks my brother is more
important. i don't care. hes going to be that way until i
go in there and give him a kiss but i want him to be that
way with me but nooo he has to be this way. whys he dating
me if my brother is more important? hes destroying all his
stuff and throwing away all the stuff he gave to me. just
the normal stuff. i wish hed stop being a jerk and just
give me a fucking kiss thats all i want and he wants to
make me happy by hanging with my brother. thats not whats
going to make me happy. yesterday was my fathers birthday.
happy birthday dad. i love you. wish you could be here. hes
32. i wish he wasn't dead but if he wasn't i probably
wouldn't have met mikey but some ways that would be good. i
might have found someone better even though i tell mikey
there is nobody better. sometimes i feel like there could
be somebody better. the other day i got this note from a
jerk named "shadow" and i blamed it on mikey because hes
the only one that knows my locker com and i found out it
was my ex-boyfriend john searor. i am not allowed to talk
to him because of mikey because he says no. but he goes and
talks to people i don't want him talking to. but does he
care that it makes me upset...nope. he doesn't care what i
think. ow my foots asleep. he was talking to jon (hayes) on
the bus the other day and jon kept giving me the "i want to
date you again" looks. i do like him still but i can't date
him. my best friend even says that he don't want me for
nothing but sex but i would give it to him if he would act
different then what he ever did before. well i gotta go




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