Nicole

~Lost in Darkness~
2003-05-02 01:04:02 (UTC)

Fighting it

2 reasons for the tittle. ( anyone else notice the fact
that i have the oddest tittles? ) well the first one is
that since Monday ive been on the verge of being sick,
always tierd, always coughing, nose running. Ya so ive been
trying to take it easy, and I have.. well for the most
part. Ive been going to bed early for the last 2 nights but
it hasent helped as much as I had hoped. It ovislly isent a
24 hour bug like i first thought. I knew I had worn myself
down last weekend, and then not sleeping Monday must of
been the last straw my body could take without any
repremands. Im honestlly trying to get better befor this
weekend. It would sux for my first real weekend at work and
Im sick. It wouldent look good either. Mostlly i just want
to be okay be4 I see Brian again, even if its only for a
minute.
Thats the second reason for the tittle. I cant get him out
of my head! OMG, its like hes taken over my punney little
mind. I dont get it, I never thought I would be like this,
never. But as time ticks by, I also get more and more
nervious about seeing him. I dont know, it will only be a
few minutes, but im already getting knots in my stomach.
This is so new to me, so if any one out there reads this,
and has any words that might help me out, PLEASE, i could
use them. Im hoping.. maybe.. HOPING, i may get his e-mail
if he has one. Well, mostlly just day dreaming that I get
it, but i really like this guy. Id really like a chance
with him, even if he is 19 and im 16. I cant stop day
dreaming about him. Im so pathetic.

HELP ME PLEASE, ANYONE




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