corrupt, and falling mind at 15

kay4him2005
2003-04-30 00:46:51 (UTC)

my choices...

Try-out for Drum major, OR go to my uncle's funeral :`(
What a great decision, I have been crying off and on for
the past two days, i HAVE to stop that...why does this
bother me so much i don't understand at all??? I just
wished everything was OVER,
today was our last drum major workshop, i think that i have
a chance, but compared to the candidates, i'm sure they all
said amanda, rachel, and linda, why?? because they see them
acting more the "band nerd" part, i guess you could call me
that, but they aren't the ones thats always there, or
trying to pick up where everyoen else left off? i feel that
i've devoted a lot of my time to the band, and i don't knwo
if that means anything or not...Drum major is important to
me, but i will respect who ever the drum majors are next
year, and I'll be a squad leader again, i always have my
senior year...I don't know much more to say.
I'm so happy that Neisha is rejoining band :-D I declare
her senior chair!!! It is mine ;) hehe, I still wnt to
thank her soo much for being such an awesome friend!
I want to be with my family right now, I wish i was, i hate
auditions so much...it never ceases to fail...




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