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Random Thought of A Teenage Outcast
2003-04-26 16:57:26 (UTC)

Chthonic and the Hedgehogs :0)

So yea we have our very first show tomorrow and lemme tell
you it really hasnt sunken in yet...the fact that there
will be at least 50 people watching me play guitar when all
im used to is the open street outside of Nikkis
garage...tomorrow ill become cold and get nervous want to
puke but i wont do it, i might even cry...but i dunno i
actually have some confindence in this band weve come quite
far in the past 2 weeks leading up to this show and at the
rate were going we can make a cd soon which is cool...all
we really need is some better equipment...it makes me so
excited that im finally in a band that practices and
everyone is so excited to be in this band and we all love
each other...cutest thing was when chris told cj he loved
him...:0) what else i going on...i dont even know because
lately its been this band 24/7...im going against all i was
against on prom...all because i have an inability to say no
to people...if i could just say no im sure alot of things
wouldnt have happened the way they did...but anywho cj
asked me to go to prom and nikkis going with joey and sara
and bill are going together which is cool cuz me and sara
can be the insane people we...take the craziness from gfym
to prom...me and nikki are starting a mosh pit and skanking
so all should be fun...i dunno i wasnt to excited about
this prom thing but i got a green dress first dress i saw i
bought and im going to get a mismatching purse cuz i know
cj wont care and itll just make me more of a spectacle
which is what i alwways go for...im also not wearing real
shoes whats the point of that? to kill myself and fall up
and down stairs? no so im wearing canvase shoes and im
decorating them...the dress is long anyway...my hands are
co cold right now...funniest thing in the world i love
stupid shallow people...someone signed our guestbook and it
actually made me feel happy that people have o much time on
thier hands they can rip on us when they havent even seen
us nor have they met us...unless they know us and just dont
like us which is a more logical explanation cuz no one
likes me anymore and i like it better that way...anywho
back to the guestbook so someone under the alias of "Kimmy"
said we were all fat and ugly and i look like a lobster and
nikki looks like shes 12 with curly fries on her head.
Another person signed it and said we were all white trach
hicks and the girls in this band need to have a makeover to
make it big...i swear people these days...they can all go
suck a big fat dick for a care because the only thing i
care about anymore is music and getting out of this
town...once high school is over ill go to a design school
get my bachelors and move the hell out of this
shithole...california is the place im looking at...and my
mom actually believes that i will make it there she knows i
have determination and i love her for that...i love my
mommy! anywho i think im gonna go bust outta here so
perhaps ill write some other say perhaps i wont i need to
go play my guitar...

Jess




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