ObservantNefariousGuitar

Life: A Guide To Suicide
2003-04-26 05:48:07 (UTC)

2003-04-06 00:38:41 (GMT)

Just Another Moan

I'm trapped in my own little world and i hate it! Like a
lil hamster trapped in it's cage running round and round
in
it's wheel but not getting anywhere. I've become really
dumb and ignorant too. I always seem to become what i
hate, or is it what i hate that becomes me?! There's tons
going on around me at the moment, but as much as i would
like to, i just can't seem to give a shit. I'm braindead
again!

I seem to spend 99.9% of my life being trapped in this
oblivious state. It's really fucking annoying, because i
used to be able to fix my mind on anything and
everything.
Now i can't even make up my mind on how i'm feeling.
Nobody told me that being a teenager was this much fun!!!

I really regret dropping out of school, but at the time i
just felt as if it were out of my control and i just
couldn't stay on. Which is a shame, because i always
managed to get good grades. I actually liked school, it
was my escape from reality, strange but true! At school i
was as good as everyone else, here, at home i'm just
wasting away like all other lower class scum. I really
can't seem to control anything in my pathetic little
escuse
for a life.

My family all just think i'm being lazy. They really
don't
have a fucking clue. Is that a good or a bad thing?! It
would be great to have someone around that understands
me.
Someone that knows when to give me hug/support or when
just
to fuck off and give me space. Does that "someone" even
exist?! Cause i know i'm crap at figuring out when to get
involved or when to just fuck off. Usually i just give up
and fuck off, cause i'm a selfish callous bitch most of
the
time. So i can't expect my "someone" to show up, can i?
If i can't be their "someone"!

Anyways, i'm really just having a mindless moan at the
moment due to my brain being dead. So i guess i'll be off
now. Oh yeh was 5th of April yesturday - Kurt Cobain
R.I.P...Yeh ok
saaaaaaad!

-Jacqueline
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