I'm not dumb...

Mofo in the Wae
2003-04-23 19:17:33 (UTC)

im still trying...but i wont succeed...

Well, here i am, its onlee been a lil while since my last
entrie but for sum reason i continue to think about how
hard it is to be happee...but, im actuallee not doing too
bad, i have a shit load of hw left but im just sitting here
typing this listening to this groovy CD that my cuzin made
me! :) ive managed to not cry yet todae...well, its onlee
like 2:40, but still...lets hope i can last till 2morrow at
least. that would b a start. sean has tanya over now...hes
so luckee that he has sum1 who cares about him and likes
him for who he is n shit...ill nvr have that...im gonna die
single, its just the wae things r meant to b...and i cant c
me loving NE~one but tom...he wuz such an ass last nite
(tho he did apologize) but i still loved him...i wuz
alreadee crying and his yelling didnt help...but its like i
wuznt crying cuz he wuz being 'mean' i wuz just crying b/c,
idk, i guess b/c thats not the usual tom...and i guess b/c
it made me realize wut a bitch i am to him, and tom, if ur
reading this IM SO SORRY!!!! idk wut id do w/o u....or
amanda, n sam, n lauren too! u guys r the best, ilysm! i
guess i just need to learn to shut up and not tell ppl my
problems cuz odviouslee they dont matter...and i wuz a fool
for not realizing that sooner. its not that im overlee sad,
its just when i have a problem i like to talk about it, cuz
it helps heal the pain...i kno that makes no sense, but its
tru...talking seems to b the onlee thing that sort of helps
me...like when tom called me, i dint think about
that...well...that evil thing he duznt like...and it wuz
kewl, cuz i had such a carefree night and i actuallee got
sum sleep. Tom, u said ud call me again...i dont think u
meant it, but if u did plz call whenever u get the chance,
cuz i need to let u c the other me, the happee me and i
just wanna here ur voice again. well, i gtg, me madre is
pissed again, later.

~KeLLee and QuaGGy

...iT's hArD 2 TeLL uR miNd tO StOp LuviN sUm1 wHeN uR
HeArT StiLL doEs...




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